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I’ve actually done my best

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to really not think about this
for 30 years…

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…let alone
talk out loud about it.

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Society has a weird view
towards women

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in these relationships.
There’s so much misogyny.

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You’re sort of pigeonholed

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into this girlfriend,
or ex-girlfriend,

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or you’re… these roles,
and you’re supposed to…

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um, sort of be cut
as a pathetic figure.

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I’ve gone as far
from being an artist

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in New York City,
as one can imagine,

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and I think that is a lot
because of his death.

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♪ No ♪

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He heard the whole of his person
in the music.

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Writing his second record
was so daunting.

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♪ Tonight, as I stand ♪

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It was a huge step forward
for him.

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But I haven’t been able
to listen.

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That might sound crazy, but…
…I can’t.

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♪ Just like a woman, yes… ♪

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I certainly was
a flawed parent.

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♪ Just like a woman ♪

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But he sure got me, you know?

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And he got exactly
where I came from,

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and understood…

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why I made the choices
I made in my life.

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No one has ever loved me
more or better…

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than he.

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Every human being
has music

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that only they can make.

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And it’s my deepest form
of communication with people.

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It’ll always keep on changing,
it’ll always defy anything

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that tries to put people
in a box.

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♪ This is our last goodbye ♪

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♪ I hate to feel the love
Between us die ♪

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♪ But it’s over ♪

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♪ Just hear this
And then I’ll go ♪

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♪ You gave me more to live for
More than you’ll ever know ♪

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There’s things I wanna do
that I’ve never heard of.

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It’s my life.

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♪ Yeah, this is
Our last embrace ♪

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♪ Must I dream
And always see your face? ♪

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I just love when men
use their voice
so unselfconsciously.

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I mean, he was literally
the best singer I’ve ever heard.

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And he was so amazed
by what female singers could do.

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Feminine, masculine,
he was and is my favorite.

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♪ Kiss me, please kiss me ♪

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♪ But kiss me
Out of desire, babe ♪

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When you really dig
into the lyrics,

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it’s so sacred,
him recognizing his own…

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I guess,
you could call it “mortality.”

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♪ I’ll only make you cry
This is our last goodbye ♪

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I wanna be
songwriter Jeff.

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Jeff Buckley, songwriter.

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♪ Oh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

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He had a way of playing

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the most beautiful songs
you’ve ever heard.

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He could have literally been
doing anything musically

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that he wanted to do.

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♪ Signs that it’s over ♪

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♪ Oh-oh, ooh ♪

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♪ It’s o… o… over ♪

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First time
I heard Jeff sing…

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he was in the bassinet.

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One time I came in,
and I could hear him.

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He was vocalizing to the radio.

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♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪

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♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪

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The day I heard
”Ain’t No Mountain High Enough,”

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boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.

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I thought, “Ooh, damn.”

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“He’s a singer.”

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Music charged my life.

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A good childhood?

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Uh…

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It was a childhood.

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My mom’s
first-generation
Panamanian immigrant.

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Very good girl, brought up
with Voodoo-Catholic values.

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You know,
brought over to Anaheim,

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you know, that hellhole
in Southern California,
where Disneyland is.

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My parents had
high hopes for me.

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You know, immigrant parents,
their eldest child.

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I wanted to be an actress,
and sing and dance,

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and play the piano,

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but I had soiled
the family name,

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and dishonored them
having premarital sex.

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I met Timothy
in French class.

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He would do things like
pull one hair on my…

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Right? And I would turn around,

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and he would be
looking up.

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We were two kids
from abusive, crazy homes,

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and we just knew the world
better than anybody else.

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♪ Now, you wanna know
The reason ♪

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Seventeen at the time,

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I was already
a teenage pregnant mom.

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♪ Why I cheated on you ♪

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My parents thought
maybe I should give

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the baby up for adoption.

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But there was no choice for me

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but to go through
with the pregnancy.

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And I knew from the fifth month

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that I was never going
to see Tim again.

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♪ This little man had to try ♪

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First of all,
he was with somebody else.

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♪ To make love feel new again ♪

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Plus, he was determined
to be a singer-songwriter.

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This child was on me.

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♪ ‘Cause there’s just
A few things, honey ♪

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He split
before I was born.

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You know, he decided
not to be a father to me.

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You don’t serve
your country, man.

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You serve life,
you serve people.

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TV, from the very beginning,
and also public schools,

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have been the great lobotomizer.

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Everything in the outer world
is not the world,

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the cars,
how much perfume you wear.

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The world is what’s inside

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and what cats
pull out of themselves

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– all through time.
- I said to him,

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”You gotta go
pursue your dreams,

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you go.”

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But… my dreams
of being an actress,

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or being a concert pianist…

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that was all gone.

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Jeff and I
sort of raised each other.

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Well, his father
wasn’t there,

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but this woman loved him
with all her heart

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and didn’t hesitate

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to make him feel loved
at every chance she had.

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He would come and put
his little hands on my face,

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and say, “We’re gonna be okay,
mommy, right?”

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And I’d go, “Yes, we are, honey.
We’re just fine.”

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He… had to take care of her.

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And he was feeling like
she had been hurt…

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and feeling horrible about that.

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♪ Perhaps it is the color
Of the sun cut flat ♪

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♪ And covering the crossroads
I’m standing at ♪

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Jeff was like having
a grandfather watching over me

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and telling me
who was okay to date,

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and who wasn’t.

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♪ But Mama
You’ve been on my mind ♪

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When I was a kid,
I always felt really proud

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if I could roll a joint for all
the grownups at the party.

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I never did it,
but, like, I always…

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”I wanna do it, let me do it.”

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I now remember the day
that my mom called me over

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to the reclining chair,
and tried to explain to me

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that if I told anybody
that they did this stuff,

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they would go to jail.

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♪ And all because of the man ♪

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♪ That got away ♪

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When Jeff was little,
before I even made coffee,

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music would go on, constant.
Constant, constant, constant.

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Judy Garland. Huh!
”The Man That Got Away.”

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I love that song.

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And it was very important
to us.

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♪ Oh, I want
A whole lotta love ♪

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My stepfather, Ronald,
he was a car mechanic.

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He was the one
that introduced me
to Led Zepplin.

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That changed my whole life.

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Ron would turn
the stereo on loud enough,

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the whole block could hear,
and there would be Little Jeff

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laying on top of the speakers

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with his little body
vibrating to the music.

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Music, it was my mother,
it was my father.

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It was the best thing
in my life.

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I see in the newspaper
this quarter-page ad.

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Tim Buckley
made a name for himself

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as one of pop music’s
genuine innovators.

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Over the course of nine albums,

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he incorporated
the prettiest of folk music,

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the most extreme
of free-form jazz

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and the raunchiest
of rock and blues.

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And I thought, “Wow,
maybe this is an opportunity

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for my son
to get to know his father.”

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I looked at Jeff and said,
”Hey, would you like to go

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see your dad perform?”

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♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

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♪ I’m singin’ Sally go round ♪

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Jeff was rocking
to the music…

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♪ Saddest thing
In this whole wide world ♪

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…and looking up at his dad.

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Tim had his eyes closed,
but he had to know he was there,

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had to be aware of his presence.

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♪ Sally, don’t you go down ♪

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When he went back
to the green room,

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I looked down and said,
”Do you wanna go see him now?”

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And I could feel
Jeff clutching my skirt…

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…you know,
kind of hanging on,

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pressing close,
and looking around.

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I couldn’t see Tim at first,
and then I heard, “Jeff!”

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”Hi, bud. How are you doing?”

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Jeff sat on his lap,
and he started talking,

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what his favorite color was,

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”My dog’s name is King,”
what grade he was in.

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About ten minutes later,
Tim said,

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”We’d like to take him home
with us tonight.”

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I’m going…

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”Yeah, you can take him home
right now,

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but you better not fuck up.”

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I stayed with him a week.
Easter vacation.

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He had an adopted son,
he had a new wife,

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he had a whole other family.

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00:13:14,862 –> 00:13:17,197
Four days later,
I got a telephone call.

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Tim had to get back
into the studio,

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and put Jeff on a bus
in Santa Monica.

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”It was so much fun.
My dad has a lot of friends.”

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”And he gave me this.”

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I said, “You save that, buddy.”

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No calls were returned.

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It was two months before.

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I have a great deal
of pain and anger,

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but I have a great deal
of love and compassion…

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for Tim.

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00:14:00,542 –> 00:14:03,243
Some things that he did
completely embarrass me to hell.

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00:14:03,877 –> 00:14:07,448
But the things that were great
hold up against anything.

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00:14:09,016 –> 00:14:12,886
Jeff wasn’t even mentioned
in any of the obituaries.

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By the time
I was in high school,

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got my first electric guitar.

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It was a black
Memphis Les Paul copy.

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Yeah, just fell in
with the wrong crowd

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and got a band together,
of course.

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♪ Eternal life
Is now on my trail ♪

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♪ Got my red glitter coffin,
Man ♪

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♪ Just need one last nail ♪

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♪ While all these
Ugly gentlemen ♪

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00:14:44,586 –> 00:14:48,889
♪ Play out their foolish games ♪

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♪ There’s a flaming red horizon
That screams our names ♪

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At 15,
Jeff was practicing

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Al Di Meola every night.

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That was a fixation I had
up until the time

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I was, maybe, 16.
And I can play anything I hear.

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My high-school bullies
called me “faggot.”

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And their fucking new-wave
girlfriends stenciled, “Geek,”

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on my fucking Ovation Viper
electric guitar case.

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♪ Roxanne ♪

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♪ You don’t have to put on
The red light ♪

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Jeff had an ability
to mimic the vocal cadences,

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and the inflections of people
he was listening to.

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♪ Roxanne ♪

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♪ You don’t have to wear
That dress tonight ♪

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♪ Walk the streets for… ♪

243
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It’s in exact album… It’s…

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‘Cause, you know,
a lot of people

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00:16:00,961 –> 00:16:02,530
would tune it down a step,
so they could hit the note.

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This is the exact…
It’s… It’s album pitch.

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♪ Put on the red light ♪

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It’s the same key.

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I used to wanna be
a guitar aficionado.

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But the thing I was gonna learn
to do best was songwriting.

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Music and words.

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I decided to make
a woman of music,

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and give myself to her.

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And at another point,
I decided to make

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a man of music
and give myself to him.

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When you’re a kid,
people assume

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that you have no mind
of your own,

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which, at a very early age,
I did.

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I put so many things
onto music for me…

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so that I wouldn’t shrink
into a black…

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universe.

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St. Ann’s in Brooklyn
wanted Jeff to sing

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at a tribute to Tim.

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♪ Oh, I never asked
To be your mountain
I never asked to fly ♪

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I said, “No.”

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♪ Remember when you came to me ♪

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”I will never, ever
perform that music.”

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- ♪ Told me of his lies ♪
- “I’ve got my own music.”

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I said,
”You know what, son?”

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”Give it some thought.”

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”There’s gonna be
some really amazing artists

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in the lineup.”

273
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So, I said, “Okay,
but I just wanna come on

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and sing, and come off.”

275
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”This is not a springboard.”

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”This is something
really personal.”

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And they told me, “Well,
we don’t know how good he is,

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so we’ll put him
with other artists

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to fill in any gaps
in his talents.”

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Dangerous situations
appeal to me.

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There had been a bit of buzz

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that Tim Buckley’s son
would be there.

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I figured,
”Hey, what’s the worst

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that can happen?”

285
00:18:12,627 –> 00:18:14,461
Um…

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The luminaries
of downtown were there.

287
00:18:19,867 –> 00:18:22,670
This could be exactly
what I dreamed for him.

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Uh…

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I didn’t know
who he was, and I’m working

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doing sound and lighting,

291
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but he was so nervous.
He was so…

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Like, his hair
was just in front of his face,

293
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and he seemed so awkward.

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Long time ago,
when I was a little kid,

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my mom sat on a bed,
and she put this record on,

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and I heard my father’s voice.

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He had on
his father’s coat,

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and he started to play…

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It was his dad’s song
about leaving him as a child.

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♪ I never asked
To be your mountain ♪

301
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- ♪ I never asked to fly ♪
- And he was weeping.

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♪ Remember when you came to me ♪

303
00:19:09,383 –> 00:19:11,653
♪ And told me of his lies ♪

304
00:19:12,820 –> 00:19:15,623
♪ You didn’t understand
My love ♪

305
00:19:16,223 –> 00:19:18,660
♪ You don’t know why I try ♪

306
00:19:19,661 –> 00:19:22,830
♪ And the rain
Was falling on that day ♪

307
00:19:23,330 –> 00:19:25,933
♪ And that’s the reason why ♪

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♪ Oh ♪

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♪ Sweet ♪

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♪ Sweet ♪

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♪ Sweet lover ♪

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It did become
Jeff’s concert.

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I was like,
”This can’t be real.”

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He told me he walked away

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with no less
than 60 business cards

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00:20:00,300 –> 00:20:01,268
in his pockets.

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My friend,
he said he heard

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Tim Buckley’s haunted voice.

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00:20:05,472 –> 00:20:07,675
It’s not his voice,
and it’s not my voice.

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It’s the voice
that’s been passed down

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00:20:09,544 –> 00:20:11,679
through every man in the family.

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He came out,
and sat next to me, and said,

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”What did you think?”

324
00:20:19,120 –> 00:20:22,156
I was thinking, “My opinion here
does not matter,”

325
00:20:22,289 –> 00:20:25,126
but that was really stunning,
like, just so beautiful.

326
00:20:31,032 –> 00:20:32,667
He was asking
if he could walk me

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to the subway,
and gets on the train with me,

328
00:20:35,670 –> 00:20:37,572
and took it all the way
into Manhattan,

329
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and we’re talking and talking.

330
00:20:39,040 –> 00:20:40,541
And we stayed on that train,

331
00:20:40,675 –> 00:20:44,011
and we went all the way up
to the last stop.

332
00:20:44,145 –> 00:20:45,680
Besides reading
and movies,

333
00:20:45,813 –> 00:20:47,481
what I really like
is night prowling,

334
00:20:47,615 –> 00:20:49,483
finding out-of-the-way places
where the misfits go.

335
00:20:51,786 –> 00:20:53,654
You’re making me laugh so much.

336
00:20:53,788 –> 00:20:55,890
♪ Yeah, mean ♪

337
00:20:56,023 –> 00:20:57,725
Then we got
in the downtown,

338
00:20:57,859 –> 00:21:00,528
and we went all the way
to Coney Island and back.

339
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♪ I will take to any task ♪

340
00:21:03,765 –> 00:21:07,668
♪ I’ll do anything you ask ♪

341
00:21:07,802 –> 00:21:14,909
♪ If you really love me still ♪

342
00:21:18,913 –> 00:21:21,448
He was so interested
in what I did,

343
00:21:21,582 –> 00:21:22,984
which really surprised me

344
00:21:23,117 –> 00:21:25,686
’cause I was doing
experimental theater.

345
00:21:26,921 –> 00:21:29,624
It was really less
about money and fame,

346
00:21:29,757 –> 00:21:32,492
and more about
pushing the boundaries.

347
00:21:33,561 –> 00:21:35,029
Nobody I knew my own age

348
00:21:35,163 –> 00:21:37,131
was really interested
in any of that,

349
00:21:37,265 –> 00:21:40,433
but he was someone who drank up
the world like a sponge.

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♪ You make me feel so young ♪

351
00:21:50,645 –> 00:21:51,612
Thank you.

352
00:21:52,246 –> 00:21:55,482
♪ You make me feel like
Spring has sprung ♪

353
00:21:55,917 –> 00:21:58,119
I was in a play
with Rebecca.

354
00:21:58,252 –> 00:21:59,520
I was in high school.

355
00:21:59,654 –> 00:22:02,422
And Jeff just felt
very electric to me.

356
00:22:03,558 –> 00:22:05,293
♪ The moment that you speak ♪

357
00:22:05,626 –> 00:22:07,460
Jeff had
a real lust for life.

358
00:22:07,595 –> 00:22:09,564
♪ Go play hide and seek ♪

359
00:22:09,697 –> 00:22:11,098
The East Village
at that time

360
00:22:11,232 –> 00:22:13,301
was such a collection
of every eccentric

361
00:22:13,433 –> 00:22:15,236
that did not fit in
anywhere else.

362
00:22:17,572 –> 00:22:19,640
♪ You and I ♪

363
00:22:20,074 –> 00:22:21,175
And he saw
so many people

364
00:22:21,309 –> 00:22:23,010
breaking down the status quo.

365
00:22:23,845 –> 00:22:27,982
Artists were being banned.
The NEA was being censored.

366
00:22:28,415 –> 00:22:30,785
New York was the place
for this amazing stuff,

367
00:22:30,918 –> 00:22:33,321
stuff I can’t even describe
to you.

368
00:22:35,355 –> 00:22:36,691
Sometimes he would
just disappear,

369
00:22:36,824 –> 00:22:38,491
and I’d get a call
from a friend later going,

370
00:22:38,626 –> 00:22:40,661
“Jeff showed up
at my house today.”

371
00:22:40,795 –> 00:22:43,064
Every moment was so spontaneous.

372
00:22:44,932 –> 00:22:48,002
He would make
very elaborate outgoing messages

373
00:22:48,135 –> 00:22:50,171
like old-time radio shows.

374
00:22:52,039 –> 00:22:54,275
And now,
the continuing adventures

375
00:22:54,407 –> 00:22:56,677
of Spinach the Cat.

376
00:22:56,811 –> 00:22:59,614
His most famous
being Spinach the Cat.

377
00:22:59,747 –> 00:23:01,515
…house cat falls on the edge.

378
00:23:01,649 –> 00:23:04,552
- And now, your host,
Quentin Snobbery!

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00:23:04,685 –> 00:23:05,987
Jeff didn’t have a job,

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00:23:06,120 –> 00:23:07,855
so he had a lot of time
on his hands.

381
00:23:07,989 –> 00:23:11,025
Jeff used to look specifically
for Michael Bolton tapes,

382
00:23:11,158 –> 00:23:12,660
so he could put
the piece of tape

383
00:23:12,793 –> 00:23:15,830
over the top,
and record over it.

384
00:23:15,963 –> 00:23:18,799
He would line up tape recorders
’cause there was no samplers,

385
00:23:18,933 –> 00:23:20,768
there was no digital computer,
nothing.

386
00:23:20,902 –> 00:23:23,905
He basically created
this little studio

387
00:23:24,038 –> 00:23:26,274
all for this…
…outgoing message.

388
00:23:26,406 –> 00:23:27,775
Pressing this sound effect

389
00:23:27,909 –> 00:23:29,343
for when the crowd cheers.

390
00:23:29,476 –> 00:23:31,646
And this sound effect
when the cat meows.

391
00:23:31,779 –> 00:23:34,081
It was an hour long.

392
00:23:34,215 –> 00:23:36,817
And so people…

393
00:23:36,951 –> 00:23:40,554
…they had to listen
to this hour-long soap opera.

394
00:23:42,556 –> 00:23:43,758
He asked me,

395
00:23:43,991 –> 00:23:45,259
”Do you think
this part is too much?”

396
00:23:45,927 –> 00:23:49,630
I thought, “The whole thing
is too much.”

397
00:23:49,764 –> 00:23:52,366
Join us next time
for the continuing adventures

398
00:23:52,499 –> 00:23:55,102
of Spinach the Cat.

399
00:23:57,271 –> 00:24:00,141
I love you. I love…

400
00:24:00,274 –> 00:24:02,910
I think
Jeff had this desire

401
00:24:03,044 –> 00:24:07,214
to be liked and loved,
and to connect with people.

402
00:24:14,989 –> 00:24:17,692
Jeff started calling me
Butterfly.

403
00:24:19,560 –> 00:24:24,765
I think he saw me at that point
of coming out of a cocoon.

404
00:24:30,470 –> 00:24:33,341
We were these two
sensitive young souls

405
00:24:33,473 –> 00:24:36,844
searching for where you fit in,
and feel empowered and loved,

406
00:24:36,978 –> 00:24:38,846
and found each other.

407
00:24:38,980 –> 00:24:41,382
♪ I once was open ♪

408
00:24:41,515 –> 00:24:45,086
♪ And one
With a traveling heart ♪

409
00:24:45,219 –> 00:24:48,889
But I called him…
…the Scratchy Fish,

410
00:24:49,023 –> 00:24:53,627
’cause he was always
not shaving, very bristly.

411
00:24:53,761 –> 00:24:56,764
And he started
making these stories,

412
00:24:56,897 –> 00:24:58,566
almost like children’s stories.

413
00:24:58,699 –> 00:25:01,869
This is Scratchy Fishy,
this is their home,

414
00:25:02,003 –> 00:25:05,539
and this is Butterfly,
and they’re getting married.

415
00:25:06,073 –> 00:25:09,543
The story he wove
about a butterfly and a fish

416
00:25:09,677 –> 00:25:12,813
was that
they could never be together.

417
00:25:13,581 –> 00:25:16,117
♪ Just like the ocean ♪

418
00:25:16,250 –> 00:25:22,223
♪ Always in love
With the moon ♪

419
00:25:23,124 –> 00:25:27,795
♪ It’s overflowing now ♪

420
00:25:27,928 –> 00:25:30,898
♪ Inside you ♪

421
00:25:31,032 –> 00:25:33,234
You could see in his eyes
that he would sometimes go

422
00:25:33,367 –> 00:25:37,038
to this place that I think
was very inaccessible

423
00:25:37,171 –> 00:25:41,208
to anyone but himself.
He just would check out.

424
00:25:42,877 –> 00:25:47,516
♪ In the half-light ♪

425
00:25:47,648 –> 00:25:54,755
♪ You saw me as I am ♪

426
00:26:00,728 –> 00:26:04,298
♪ The stars have lost
Their glitter ♪

427
00:26:04,932 –> 00:26:07,601
♪ The winds have grown colder ♪

428
00:26:07,735 –> 00:26:11,705
I wanted to be a… you know,
a chanteuse.

429
00:26:12,206 –> 00:26:15,443
♪ Don’t know what happened ♪

430
00:26:15,576 –> 00:26:21,916
♪ It’s all a crazy game ♪

431
00:26:22,049 –> 00:26:24,652
Secretly, I think
I wanted to be Nina Simone.

432
00:26:24,785 –> 00:26:29,190
♪ I love all things about you ♪

433
00:26:29,623 –> 00:26:32,426
Although she would advise
against this strongly, I’m sure.

434
00:26:32,561 –> 00:26:34,428
- ♪ Your heart ♪
- ♪ Your heart ♪

435
00:26:34,563 –> 00:26:38,966
Sometimes, I think I wanted
to be Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan.

436
00:26:43,771 –> 00:26:45,072
He was my Elvis.

437
00:26:45,206 –> 00:26:46,040
♪ Oh ♪

438
00:27:10,498 –> 00:27:14,668
To be a scrappy, young
White kid from Orange County,

439
00:27:14,802 –> 00:27:18,672
covering Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan
or Nina Simone,

440
00:27:18,806 –> 00:27:20,141
you just have to give it up.

441
00:27:20,274 –> 00:27:22,109
He must’ve been
working his ass off.

442
00:27:25,045 –> 00:27:26,714
There was
a tiny little club

443
00:27:26,847 –> 00:27:29,850
in the East Village
called Sin-e.

444
00:27:30,718 –> 00:27:32,286
You could probably fit in

445
00:27:32,419 –> 00:27:35,356
maybe 30 or 40 people
at the most,

446
00:27:35,489 –> 00:27:37,391
and it would be
super, super crowded.

447
00:27:37,526 –> 00:27:43,464
And Jeff was washing dishes,
he was serving people coffee,

448
00:27:43,598 –> 00:27:48,002
and then every now and then
he would just get up and play.

449
00:27:48,135 –> 00:27:49,937
Check. That’s cool.

450
00:27:50,070 –> 00:27:52,574
I’m a ridiculous person.

451
00:27:52,706 –> 00:27:54,909
And you’re lucky
you’ve paid no money to see me.

452
00:27:57,144 –> 00:28:00,114
It was
an Irish-run coffee shop.

453
00:28:00,247 –> 00:28:03,652
A great little place
to see somebody in the raw.

454
00:28:05,654 –> 00:28:08,055
This is a perfect place
for music lovers.

455
00:28:08,189 –> 00:28:09,823
It’s not like playing
at a rock club.

456
00:28:09,957 –> 00:28:13,327
It’s not like playing at a ball.
This is good place to get real.

457
00:28:13,460 –> 00:28:14,663
Turn it up.

458
00:28:14,795 –> 00:28:16,864
It was so homey
in here.

459
00:28:16,997 –> 00:28:19,967
It just smelled
of, like, espresso.

460
00:28:20,100 –> 00:28:22,403
He’d be in the middle
of some, like, ballad

461
00:28:22,537 –> 00:28:25,005
and you just hear that…

462
00:28:25,139 –> 00:28:29,176
♪ And we sat on our own star ♪

463
00:28:29,310 –> 00:28:31,245
♪ And dreamed of the way
that I was… ♪

464
00:28:31,378 –> 00:28:33,714
The Sin-e community
became a place

465
00:28:33,847 –> 00:28:35,550
of such encouragement for him.

466
00:28:35,684 –> 00:28:36,884
♪ Oh, baby, baby ♪

467
00:28:37,017 –> 00:28:38,653
It really became a home

468
00:28:38,786 –> 00:28:40,287
where he could experiment.

469
00:28:41,021 –> 00:28:43,525
- ♪ It’s a fabulous time
- For a Guinness ♪

470
00:28:43,658 –> 00:28:47,194
♪ You know the brown liquor ♪

471
00:28:57,838 –> 00:29:00,542
The Buttocks
of Steel tour, Jeff Buckley.

472
00:29:00,675 –> 00:29:03,344
In the beginning,
there were just a few people.

473
00:29:03,477 –> 00:29:06,280
Then all of a sudden,
it was, like, packed.

474
00:29:06,413 –> 00:29:08,282
I’ll play
the seat-finding song.

475
00:29:08,415 –> 00:29:10,552
Crowds, you know,
spilling out into the street.

476
00:29:12,554 –> 00:29:13,854
Everybody, stop.

477
00:29:15,256 –> 00:29:16,691
He was really
an entertainer there

478
00:29:16,824 –> 00:29:18,359
as much as a musician.

479
00:29:18,492 –> 00:29:19,994
By the way,
all these songs are

480
00:29:20,127 –> 00:29:21,829
for the lovers in the audience.

481
00:29:21,962 –> 00:29:25,065
He mostly did covers.

482
00:29:25,499 –> 00:29:27,669
And then
he started introducing

483
00:29:27,801 –> 00:29:29,169
some of the original material.

484
00:29:30,304 –> 00:29:33,207
It went from laughing
to jaw-dropping,
you know?

485
00:29:34,108 –> 00:29:35,943
This is a song
about a dream.

486
00:29:49,189 –> 00:29:54,596
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

487
00:29:54,729 –> 00:29:59,833
♪ Whoo ♪

488
00:30:01,736 –> 00:30:06,140
♪ Oh, Oh ♪

489
00:30:06,273 –> 00:30:10,177
♪ Whoo-ooh ♪

490
00:30:19,587 –> 00:30:23,223
♪ Oh, oh ♪

491
00:30:26,561 –> 00:30:28,663
♪ Ooh… ♪

492
00:30:31,999 –> 00:30:37,271
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

493
00:30:38,606 –> 00:30:41,408
That was the first time I ever
saw Jeff Buckley at Sin-e.

494
00:30:41,842 –> 00:30:45,613
♪ When I’m lying in my bed
The blanket is warm ♪

495
00:30:45,814 –> 00:30:49,718
♪ This body will never be safe
From harm ♪

496
00:30:49,850 –> 00:30:53,822
♪ I still feel your hair
Black ribbons of coal ♪

497
00:30:54,254 –> 00:31:01,128
♪ Touch my skin
To keep me whole ♪

498
00:31:04,331 –> 00:31:07,000
I mean, you know,
a pin could drop.

499
00:31:07,968 –> 00:31:10,505
I wasn’t thinking about
being a music executive.

500
00:31:10,638 –> 00:31:11,939
I was just a fan.

501
00:31:12,640 –> 00:31:16,043
♪ Oh, if only
You’d come back to me ♪

502
00:31:17,144 –> 00:31:20,548
♪ If you laid at my side ♪

503
00:31:21,014 –> 00:31:24,385
♪ Wouldn’t need no mojo pin ♪

504
00:31:24,819 –> 00:31:29,557
♪ To keep me satisfied ♪

505
00:31:29,691 –> 00:31:31,959
I was there
with Columbia.

506
00:31:33,026 –> 00:31:35,028
I think
we were all sort of stopped

507
00:31:35,162 –> 00:31:36,698
in our tracks that night.

508
00:31:48,008 –> 00:31:50,545
♪ Oh, precious, precious
Silver and gold ♪

509
00:31:50,678 –> 00:31:52,614
The whole
record company gauntlet

510
00:31:52,747 –> 00:31:54,649
started infesting
my gigs.

511
00:31:54,783 –> 00:31:57,017
They were all there,
the people from Elektra,

512
00:31:57,151 –> 00:31:58,820
Arista, Sony.

513
00:31:58,952 –> 00:32:01,955
♪ And pray to love ♪

514
00:32:02,791 –> 00:32:04,158
Hmm!

515
00:32:04,291 –> 00:32:05,959
It was a bit of a cotillion.

516
00:32:06,861 –> 00:32:08,128
But that’s the way it goes.

517
00:32:08,262 –> 00:32:11,231
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

518
00:32:11,365 –> 00:32:13,467
We’d all heard
so many nightmares

519
00:32:13,601 –> 00:32:17,672
about large labels,
and lack of creative expression,

520
00:32:17,806 –> 00:32:19,206
but I think he went into it

521
00:32:19,339 –> 00:32:20,340
feeling like
he’d been reassured

522
00:32:20,474 –> 00:32:22,276
that he was gonna get that.

523
00:32:22,409 –> 00:32:25,680
♪ Well, it’s you
I’ve waited my life to see ♪

524
00:32:25,814 –> 00:32:28,750
♪ It’s you I’ve searched
So hard… ♪

525
00:32:28,883 –> 00:32:30,585
I knew that
they were just sitting there

526
00:32:30,718 –> 00:32:32,587
with bated breath,
waiting for the new Tim Buckley

527
00:32:32,720 –> 00:32:35,222
to come up and pick up
where his father left off.

528
00:32:35,355 –> 00:32:38,827
I hated it. I couldn’t stand it.
Fucking bullshit.

529
00:32:39,627 –> 00:32:41,995
What do you think
you inherited from your father?

530
00:32:42,129 –> 00:32:43,631
People who remember my father.

531
00:32:46,668 –> 00:32:47,569
Next question.

532
00:32:49,704 –> 00:32:51,873
I went around and sampled
record company people

533
00:32:52,005 –> 00:32:53,641
to find where I fit in.

534
00:32:53,775 –> 00:32:56,009
Jeff had
a little bit of fear

535
00:32:56,143 –> 00:32:57,277
about the fact
that he didn’t have

536
00:32:57,411 –> 00:32:58,613
more original material.

537
00:32:58,746 –> 00:33:00,347
I would never tell him
what to do,

538
00:33:00,481 –> 00:33:02,216
but I was like, “Go small.”

539
00:33:02,983 –> 00:33:05,587
I went to Sony.
Well, Columbia.

540
00:33:06,353 –> 00:33:07,655
When you walk in,

541
00:33:07,789 –> 00:33:09,356
the first thing you see
is Bob Dylan,

542
00:33:09,691 –> 00:33:13,026
on the wall, looking beautiful.
A foot away is Miles.

543
00:33:13,695 –> 00:33:16,731
Foot away is Monk,
Duke Ellington,

544
00:33:16,865 –> 00:33:18,933
Chambers Brothers, Mahalia.

545
00:33:19,066 –> 00:33:20,467
♪ Sometimes I feel ♪

546
00:33:20,602 –> 00:33:23,003
It was purely emotional,
I was like “Yeah, this is…

547
00:33:23,136 –> 00:33:25,172
I wanna be… here.”

548
00:33:27,942 –> 00:33:30,645
Columbia has
such a storied legacy

549
00:33:30,778 –> 00:33:34,649
of Leonard Cohen and Bob Dylan
and Bruce Springsteen.

550
00:33:34,782 –> 00:33:38,285
What we all felt
sitting in that room was that

551
00:33:38,418 –> 00:33:41,054
he would one day
be in that pantheon.

552
00:33:44,224 –> 00:33:46,628
I said, “Gentlemen,
you won’t be able to dictate

553
00:33:46,761 –> 00:33:48,061
anything to me,

554
00:33:48,495 –> 00:33:49,764
I’m just gonna make something
I’ve never heard before.”

555
00:33:49,898 –> 00:33:51,231
And the people
that I settled with

556
00:33:51,365 –> 00:33:52,967
were pretty fine with that idea.

557
00:33:53,701 –> 00:33:55,168
He was told that
it was, like,

558
00:33:55,302 –> 00:33:56,604
one of the biggest deals

559
00:33:56,738 –> 00:33:59,473
an unknown person
had ever gotten.

560
00:34:00,440 –> 00:34:03,243
He brought home
the contract.
It was, like, 40 pages long.

561
00:34:03,377 –> 00:34:04,946
I’d never seen
anything like it.

562
00:34:07,849 –> 00:34:09,784
It should have been just joy,

563
00:34:10,217 –> 00:34:12,386
but I think
suddenly things changed.

564
00:34:17,559 –> 00:34:18,993
I would come home from work,

565
00:34:19,126 –> 00:34:20,995
and I’d come up
the six flights of stairs,

566
00:34:21,128 –> 00:34:23,130
and I would get to the door,
and put my key in the door,

567
00:34:23,263 –> 00:34:25,132
and I’d hear him stop.

568
00:34:26,000 –> 00:34:27,669
Before the record contract,

569
00:34:27,802 –> 00:34:30,538
he would sing and play for me
all the time.

570
00:34:31,338 –> 00:34:34,709
I said to him,
”Do you need a place to work?”

571
00:34:34,842 –> 00:34:37,679
The pressure to write songs
and not be interrupted

572
00:34:37,812 –> 00:34:39,379
was so intense.

573
00:34:41,148 –> 00:34:42,684
I’m going to write…

574
00:34:44,151 –> 00:34:47,689
a hundred songs in five weeks.

575
00:34:49,591 –> 00:34:51,859
Means 20 songs a week.

576
00:34:53,595 –> 00:34:54,862
Ugh…

577
00:34:54,996 –> 00:34:57,065
He struggled
with the lyrics.

578
00:34:57,197 –> 00:35:00,568
I’m a horrible critic.
I’m my own worst critic.

579
00:35:01,002 –> 00:35:04,005
He was obsessed
with Morrissey and Dylan.

580
00:35:04,438 –> 00:35:06,874
So, he had a very high standard.

581
00:35:07,274 –> 00:35:11,144
He didn’t wanna be known
as the guy who only does covers.

582
00:35:12,446 –> 00:35:13,748
My hope had been that

583
00:35:13,881 –> 00:35:15,349
we would work
on the relationship

584
00:35:15,482 –> 00:35:16,985
and live together,

585
00:35:17,117 –> 00:35:19,954
but he would find another space
where he could get

586
00:35:20,088 –> 00:35:22,757
this record contract fulfilled.

587
00:35:23,323 –> 00:35:25,560
That was naive
to hope…

588
00:35:25,693 –> 00:35:28,529
…’cause he moved out
completely.

589
00:35:37,204 –> 00:35:39,507
People are, like, saying,
”Look, I’ll give you
all this money,

590
00:35:39,641 –> 00:35:41,542
look, I’ll be your manager,
look, I’ll be your agent.”

591
00:35:41,676 –> 00:35:43,745
”Look, I got this place
I want you to play.
Blah, blah, blah.”

592
00:35:44,478 –> 00:35:45,813
And I just wanna make
something special,

593
00:35:45,947 –> 00:35:47,582
not even care
about anything else,

594
00:35:47,715 –> 00:35:50,885
money, or prestige,
or a tour, or nothing.

595
00:35:51,552 –> 00:35:55,056
♪ There’s the moon
Asking to stay ♪

596
00:36:01,294 –> 00:36:02,964
Try it again.

597
00:36:05,133 –> 00:36:09,236
♪ There’s the moon
Asking to stay ♪

598
00:36:09,671 –> 00:36:12,607
♪ Long enough
For the clouds to fly… ♪

599
00:36:12,740 –> 00:36:14,942
Coming up with
a record’s worth of material

600
00:36:15,076 –> 00:36:18,146
with musicians and a producer
and engineers waiting,

601
00:36:18,278 –> 00:36:19,781
and everybody
is dependent on you,

602
00:36:20,313 –> 00:36:22,784
you know, it’s like, tick-tock,
start making magic.

603
00:36:22,917 –> 00:36:26,353
Let’s try it again.
Come into my world.

604
00:36:26,486 –> 00:36:29,423
My journals are the lyrics
for the albums.

605
00:36:30,591 –> 00:36:32,459
The songs just come
out of poems,

606
00:36:32,593 –> 00:36:34,461
and sometimes
poems come out of dreams.

607
00:36:34,595 –> 00:36:38,866
♪ And she weeps on my arm ♪

608
00:36:39,000 –> 00:36:45,472
♪ Walking to the bright lights
In sorrow ♪

609
00:36:45,973 –> 00:36:51,779
♪ Oh, drink a bit of wine
We both might go tomorrow ♪

610
00:36:51,913 –> 00:36:54,082
This is a song
called “Grace.”

611
00:36:54,214 –> 00:36:55,783
It’s basically a death prayer.

612
00:36:57,985 –> 00:36:59,520
♪ Ooh ♪

613
00:36:59,654 –> 00:37:01,089
I always describe it as,
you know,

614
00:37:01,254 –> 00:37:04,391
not fearing anything,
anyone, any man, any woman,

615
00:37:04,525 –> 00:37:06,127
any war, any gun,

616
00:37:06,661 –> 00:37:10,732
any sling or arrow aimed
at your heart by other people.

617
00:37:10,865 –> 00:37:11,966
♪ Ooh ♪

618
00:37:12,100 –> 00:37:15,469
♪ It reminds me of the pain ♪

619
00:37:23,878 –> 00:37:25,913
Because there is
somebody finally

620
00:37:26,047 –> 00:37:27,515
who loves you for real.

621
00:37:30,317 –> 00:37:33,554
You can achieve
a real state of grace

622
00:37:33,688 –> 00:37:35,590
through somebody else’s
love in you.

623
00:37:46,333 –> 00:37:49,336
Jeff would say, “Oh, we should
bring strings in on this song.”

624
00:37:50,805 –> 00:37:54,242
We had this idea to write
interesting backgrounds

625
00:37:54,374 –> 00:37:57,879
that fit the voice,
actual lines,

626
00:37:58,012 –> 00:37:59,312
you know, counter lines.

627
00:37:59,914 –> 00:38:02,282
Karl came
from the jazz world.

628
00:38:02,415 –> 00:38:03,851
He was more appealing to Jeff

629
00:38:03,985 –> 00:38:06,419
than somebody who does
pop string arrangements.

630
00:38:06,554 –> 00:38:08,589
Britney Spears would call,
and I said,

631
00:38:08,723 –> 00:38:10,858
“No, that’s… you’re calling
the wrong person.”

632
00:38:12,392 –> 00:38:17,064
Jeff listened to Bill Evans.
He listened to Shostakovich.

633
00:38:18,431 –> 00:38:20,735
♪ Have you heard
of any pop singers

634
00:38:20,868 –> 00:38:24,005
even knowing
who Shostakovich is?

635
00:38:24,138 –> 00:38:27,542
♪ ♪ And the rain is falling ♪

636
00:38:27,675 –> 00:38:30,310
♪ And I believe ♪

637
00:38:30,443 –> 00:38:31,779
It was the same way

638
00:38:31,946 –> 00:38:33,480
that Led Zeppelin
used orchestrations.

639
00:38:33,614 –> 00:38:35,283
Any orchestra leader
would have loved

640
00:38:35,415 –> 00:38:36,918
to have had their day with Jeff,

641
00:38:37,051 –> 00:38:39,754
to be able
to just go to the moon.

642
00:38:41,354 –> 00:38:45,626
People who sing high lose power.
Jeff actually gains power.

643
00:38:46,060 –> 00:38:48,529
His range
was like four octaves.

644
00:38:49,030 –> 00:38:50,832
You think
you’re coming to a peak,

645
00:38:50,965 –> 00:38:52,600
and then he goes
one step further

646
00:38:52,733 –> 00:38:54,302
and then he goes
another step further.

647
00:38:54,434 –> 00:38:58,005
♪ Oh! ♪

648
00:38:58,139 –> 00:39:01,576
♪ Oh! ♪

649
00:39:01,709 –> 00:39:07,148
♪ Oh! ♪

650
00:39:07,347 –> 00:39:09,584
♪ Yeah, whoo ♪

651
00:39:09,717 –> 00:39:13,221
“Grace” is one of those songs
that would inspire me
to pick up the guitar and play,

652
00:39:13,353 –> 00:39:14,856
and then I’d start to

653
00:39:14,989 –> 00:39:17,658
kind of… find something
that made me feel like that,

654
00:39:17,792 –> 00:39:20,094
and fail miserably at it,
put the guitar back.

655
00:39:20,228 –> 00:39:23,396
♪ Oh, oh! ♪

656
00:39:30,972 –> 00:39:34,308
Jeff said, “I want you
to shoot my album cover.”

657
00:39:35,042 –> 00:39:39,714
I had all the contact sheets,
and Jeff just went… boing,

658
00:39:39,847 –> 00:39:41,782
”That’s it. That’s the cover.”

659
00:39:42,250 –> 00:39:43,450
It’s completely iconic.

660
00:39:43,584 –> 00:39:45,620
He already looks like
he’s Sinatra.

661
00:39:46,320 –> 00:39:48,756
The folks
at the company didn’t like

662
00:39:48,890 –> 00:39:50,157
the glittery gold jacket.

663
00:39:50,291 –> 00:39:52,927
”Yeah, that’s a little
too effeminate.”

664
00:39:53,060 –> 00:39:54,195
And Jeff’s like,

665
00:39:54,427 –> 00:39:56,396
”You gave me creative control.
I choose that.”

666
00:39:56,831 –> 00:40:00,167
♪ And I feel them
Drown my name ♪

667
00:40:00,301 –> 00:40:03,638
♪ Was so easy to know ♪

668
00:40:03,771 –> 00:40:07,508
♪ And forget with this kiss ♪

669
00:40:07,642 –> 00:40:11,178
♪ Well, I’m not afraid to go ♪

670
00:40:11,312 –> 00:40:18,418
♪ But it goes so slow ♪

671
00:40:25,293 –> 00:40:27,929
Seven originals, three covers.

672
00:40:28,062 –> 00:40:31,431
♪ Wait in the fire ♪

673
00:40:31,565 –> 00:40:34,068
♪ Wait in the fire ♪

674
00:40:34,201 –> 00:40:37,004
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

675
00:40:37,138 –> 00:40:39,607
He made a record that
no one else could ever have

676
00:40:39,740 –> 00:40:43,544
come close to making
as a first record, it’s uncanny.

677
00:40:43,678 –> 00:40:46,681
Now, it’s like
a legendary album.

678
00:40:46,814 –> 00:40:49,449
People know me better for that
than for my own music.

679
00:40:51,018 –> 00:40:55,423
♪ Oh, yeah, wait in the fire ♪

680
00:41:01,929 –> 00:41:04,799
– That was all right.
– It was great.

681
00:41:07,735 –> 00:41:09,103
I remember…

682
00:41:09,870 –> 00:41:12,707
putting it in the CD player
in my car…

683
00:41:17,411 –> 00:41:19,046
and I was…

684
00:41:20,114 –> 00:41:25,186
overwhelmed with the mastery,
and the musicianship…

685
00:41:26,087 –> 00:41:27,588
and the poetry.

686
00:41:29,357 –> 00:41:30,257
And…

687
00:41:31,659 –> 00:41:33,828
and the vocal performances…

688
00:41:35,196 –> 00:41:36,764
were beyond anything

689
00:41:36,897 –> 00:41:40,534
I had imagined
he was capable of.

690
00:41:42,303 –> 00:41:45,239
♪ Ooh ♪

691
00:41:55,816 –> 00:41:59,053
Boy!
France, Australia, UK, huge.

692
00:41:59,186 –> 00:42:02,556
“Grace” was huge!
It was a monster hit.

693
00:42:03,190 –> 00:42:05,159
US, moderate.

694
00:42:09,430 –> 00:42:11,032
♪ Oh ♪

695
00:42:11,165 –> 00:42:13,234
As a child,
I lived in Los Angeles.

696
00:42:13,701 –> 00:42:15,870
I mean,
you see people getting signed,

697
00:42:16,003 –> 00:42:18,507
dreams totally inflated falsely.

698
00:42:19,206 –> 00:42:21,742
But I really admire artists
allowed to fail,

699
00:42:21,876 –> 00:42:23,010
are allowed to be human,

700
00:42:23,144 –> 00:42:25,012
allowed to make
the most glorious dances

701
00:42:25,146 –> 00:42:27,815
they could ever imagine,
and totally fall,

702
00:42:27,948 –> 00:42:29,884
and get back up
’cause it’s all human.

703
00:42:30,017 –> 00:42:32,820
But if you’re like this side of,
you know, Danny Partridge,

704
00:42:32,953 –> 00:42:34,822
it’s just, like,
totally impossible.

705
00:42:36,824 –> 00:42:38,793
It’s the era of grunge.

706
00:42:38,926 –> 00:42:40,361
And Jeff was
a real counterweight to that.

707
00:42:40,494 –> 00:42:43,532
He was part of
this downtown New York scene.

708
00:42:47,201 –> 00:42:49,837
Back then
Jeff defied genres.

709
00:42:49,970 –> 00:42:52,273
Jeff tested boundaries.

710
00:42:53,274 –> 00:42:56,343
Jeff challenged
traditional male, female roles.

711
00:42:57,111 –> 00:42:59,480
So, his music
was not easy to fit

712
00:42:59,613 –> 00:43:03,217
into the dozen radio categories.

713
00:43:08,322 –> 00:43:11,158
And yet
Jeff was also influenced

714
00:43:11,292 –> 00:43:13,928
by some of the artists
that came out

715
00:43:14,061 –> 00:43:16,931
in the late ’80s and early ’90s
from Seattle.

716
00:43:18,365 –> 00:43:20,801
Soundgarden was playing
in London,

717
00:43:21,268 –> 00:43:24,371
and I don’t think
I quite realized

718
00:43:24,506 –> 00:43:28,042
what a huge Soundgarden fan
Jeff was.

719
00:43:28,577 –> 00:43:31,513
♪ You’ve been taken ♪

720
00:43:32,379 –> 00:43:34,615
Oh, my goodness,
this is where he could be

721
00:43:34,748 –> 00:43:37,818
like a little, you know,
annoying brother, like,

722
00:43:37,952 –> 00:43:41,422
”You have to take me.
I’m coming with you.”

723
00:43:43,390 –> 00:43:46,327
He just magically showed up
one day,

724
00:43:46,460 –> 00:43:47,862
and it was on.

725
00:43:48,462 –> 00:43:51,332
It was a beautiful,
beautiful friendship

726
00:43:51,465 –> 00:43:53,000
between he and Chris.

727
00:43:53,334 –> 00:43:56,237
There was a sense of mischief
with this…

728
00:43:57,171 –> 00:44:00,474
almost soulmate understanding.

729
00:44:01,275 –> 00:44:03,177
Chris Cornell
does it really well.

730
00:44:03,310 –> 00:44:05,580
He’s, like, the one
of the few people I’ve met

731
00:44:05,713 –> 00:44:09,283
that makes his life work,
his ordinary life,

732
00:44:09,416 –> 00:44:11,752
’cause without ordinary life,
there’s no art.

733
00:44:14,523 –> 00:44:17,258
How would you like
your fans to think of you?

734
00:44:18,092 –> 00:44:20,327
Just as a… Really as a guy

735
00:44:20,461 –> 00:44:23,430
that’s just, like,
a really good storyteller.

736
00:44:23,565 –> 00:44:26,433
Just somebody who does
a job that they enjoy.

737
00:44:27,001 –> 00:44:28,603
Of course,
it was incredible

738
00:44:28,736 –> 00:44:32,873
that so many people
reacted to his music,

739
00:44:33,575 –> 00:44:36,343
but the fame
that went along with that

740
00:44:36,477 –> 00:44:38,846
was not the fun part.

741
00:44:40,381 –> 00:44:43,250
Even when he acted confident,
it was kind of an act.

742
00:44:43,384 –> 00:44:46,521
It was him channeling
that bravely as a character,

743
00:44:46,655 –> 00:44:48,822
but I still think
that really insecure person

744
00:44:48,956 –> 00:44:50,724
was always there.

745
00:44:51,058 –> 00:44:53,027
Well,
everybody is sensitive,
but sometimes,

746
00:44:53,160 –> 00:44:55,229
men don’t wanna recognize it.

747
00:44:56,163 –> 00:44:58,098
I don’t even want people
to really think of me as a face,

748
00:44:58,232 –> 00:45:01,202
or a name, or a body,
or anything, just the music,

749
00:45:01,603 –> 00:45:02,637
’cause when I’m dead…

750
00:45:03,572 –> 00:45:05,839
that’s the only thing
that’ll be around.

751
00:45:13,447 –> 00:45:15,849
How he was being
examined under a microscope

752
00:45:15,983 –> 00:45:17,318
was so intense,

753
00:45:17,718 –> 00:45:22,356
’cause that quality he had
to disappear in the moment…

754
00:45:23,224 –> 00:45:26,794
ultimately amounted
to not showing up

755
00:45:26,927 –> 00:45:28,362
where I was.

756
00:45:30,331 –> 00:45:35,035
One night, he didn’t come home,
and this was Valentine’s Day.

757
00:45:35,169 –> 00:45:36,904
By 03:00 or 04:00
in the morning,

758
00:45:37,037 –> 00:45:39,773
I was calling hospitals
around New York City.

759
00:45:40,274 –> 00:45:44,812
And then he just sauntered in.
He had been out with friends.

760
00:45:45,846 –> 00:45:49,083
♪ Maybe I’m too young ♪

761
00:45:55,690 –> 00:45:57,024
♪ But tonight… ♪

762
00:45:57,224 –> 00:45:58,926
Hi, Rebecca, it’s nine o’clock

763
00:45:59,059 –> 00:46:01,028
and I fucking couldn’t get
into your show,

764
00:46:01,161 –> 00:46:03,130
’cause I got there too close
to eight o’clock.

765
00:46:03,264 –> 00:46:06,534
I’m so disappointed.
I really wanna see you.

766
00:46:09,403 –> 00:46:12,873
♪ Too young to hold on ♪

767
00:46:13,675 –> 00:46:18,546
♪ And too old
To just break free and run ♪

768
00:46:20,414 –> 00:46:22,249
During
his record-release party,

769
00:46:22,383 –> 00:46:26,688
I had a backstage pass.
He’d handwritten my name on it.

770
00:46:27,321 –> 00:46:30,558
His manager was at the door,
and he went,

771
00:46:30,692 –> 00:46:33,193
”You can’t go in now.
Sit over there.”

772
00:46:33,961 –> 00:46:35,396
Two hours went by,

773
00:46:36,030 –> 00:46:37,599
I went to the door,
and I turned the handle,

774
00:46:37,732 –> 00:46:38,999
and I walked in…

775
00:46:39,133 –> 00:46:40,901
…and it was
a mostly empty room.

776
00:46:41,035 –> 00:46:43,370
♪ Gets carried away ♪

777
00:46:43,605 –> 00:46:46,340
They said Jeff left,
like, over an hour ago.

778
00:46:46,473 –> 00:46:48,777
He must have gone out
a back door.

779
00:46:49,577 –> 00:46:51,713
The next morning,
he was so apologetic,

780
00:46:51,845 –> 00:46:53,914
and really upset…

781
00:46:55,249 –> 00:46:57,484
but I felt resigned.

782
00:46:58,419 –> 00:47:01,388
I didn’t wanna be an appendage,
I didn’t wanna be in his world

783
00:47:01,523 –> 00:47:03,824
if he didn’t really
want me there.

784
00:47:09,597 –> 00:47:14,468
♪ So, I’ll wait for you
And I’ll burn ♪

785
00:47:15,670 –> 00:47:19,340
♪ Will I ever see
Your sweet return? ♪

786
00:47:19,473 –> 00:47:21,643
The hard part about letting go
was like,

787
00:47:21,776 –> 00:47:25,112
”I hope
he will have good people,”

788
00:47:25,245 –> 00:47:27,881
because he didn’t have
any self-protection.

789
00:47:28,015 –> 00:47:31,485
♪ It’s never over ♪

790
00:47:31,686 –> 00:47:37,925
♪ She’s the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever ♪

791
00:47:41,195 –> 00:47:45,232
♪ Love, lover ♪

792
00:47:45,834 –> 00:47:47,201
♪ Lover ♪

793
00:47:47,334 –> 00:47:52,039
♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪

794
00:47:52,172 –> 00:47:55,909
♪ Love, love, love ♪

795
00:47:56,110 –> 00:48:00,881
♪ Lover ♪

796
00:48:01,014 –> 00:48:06,387
♪ You should’ve come over ♪

797
00:48:07,888 –> 00:48:14,995
♪ ‘Cause it’s not too late ♪

798
00:48:25,072 –> 00:48:27,040
When Rebecca and him split,

799
00:48:27,174 –> 00:48:31,011
he just kind of looked like
a different person for a while.

800
00:48:38,452 –> 00:48:40,822
There was a time
when I was in New York

801
00:48:40,954 –> 00:48:45,392
and we spent some time together,
and… we met at a bar.

802
00:48:45,527 –> 00:48:48,195
And this jazz band
is really loud,

803
00:48:48,328 –> 00:48:50,497
so it was impossible
for us to talk.

804
00:48:51,398 –> 00:48:55,804
We started
writing each other messages.

805
00:48:56,538 –> 00:48:59,940
For a lot of it, I think
he was trying to be seductive…

806
00:49:01,108 –> 00:49:02,677
but…

807
00:49:02,811 –> 00:49:04,378
…it was, like, really not
where I wanted to go.

808
00:49:08,783 –> 00:49:13,688
There was a very boundary-less
kind of liquid feeling to him.

809
00:49:14,321 –> 00:49:16,858
He felt very desperate
to self-medicate

810
00:49:16,990 –> 00:49:20,327
with, you know, making us
into a sexual relationship.

811
00:49:22,831 –> 00:49:24,998
I remember getting
kind of frustrated,

812
00:49:25,633 –> 00:49:29,236
and writing,
”You need love, not sex.”

813
00:49:31,438 –> 00:49:33,307
Generally, I love
to rush in there,

814
00:49:33,440 –> 00:49:35,743
and try to fix a broken guy,

815
00:49:35,877 –> 00:49:42,115
but that liquid, watery quality
just felt very tidal-wavy.

816
00:49:44,953 –> 00:49:47,087
He was very hard
on himself.

817
00:49:47,221 –> 00:49:49,524
Like, sometimes
I got the sense that…

818
00:49:50,658 –> 00:49:54,361
he felt that there were
good and evil forces,

819
00:49:54,495 –> 00:49:56,531
you know, at play within him.

820
00:50:04,338 –> 00:50:07,140
Music, I don’t know,
it’ll save you.

821
00:50:07,274 –> 00:50:08,776
One, two, three!

822
00:50:11,646 –> 00:50:14,114
♪ Lover, you should’ve
Come over ♪

823
00:50:14,682 –> 00:50:17,351
♪ Lover, you should’ve
Come over, whoo-hoo! ♪

824
00:50:17,652 –> 00:50:20,955
♪ Lover, don’t forget
To bring the Coors, whoo! ♪

825
00:50:21,321 –> 00:50:22,857
Matt Johnson on drums.

826
00:50:23,457 –> 00:50:25,425
The bass player, Mick Grøndahl.

827
00:50:25,560 –> 00:50:27,294
– I’m Mick Grøndahl.
– And I’m Jeff Buckley.

828
00:50:27,427 –> 00:50:29,764
And you’re watching
120 Minutes on MTV.

829
00:50:30,732 –> 00:50:32,700
He asked me
to join the band too.

830
00:50:32,834 –> 00:50:35,202
Sometimes I think
Jeff wanted me,

831
00:50:35,335 –> 00:50:38,105
because I was a connection
to Rebecca,

832
00:50:38,238 –> 00:50:39,239
and those memories.

833
00:50:40,040 –> 00:50:42,409
I think that it was clear
that Michael didn’t know

834
00:50:42,544 –> 00:50:44,344
how to play the guitar.

835
00:50:44,478 –> 00:50:47,047
Yeah, all right,
there were tube socks.

836
00:50:47,180 –> 00:50:48,482
They were tube socks.

837
00:50:48,616 –> 00:50:50,050
But it was
about personality.

838
00:50:50,183 –> 00:50:51,619
It was about people.

839
00:50:51,753 –> 00:50:53,253
I would have my amp
really quiet.

840
00:50:53,387 –> 00:50:54,923
Jeff would slowly
turn it back up,

841
00:50:55,055 –> 00:50:56,925
you know, and I’d get all tight.

842
00:50:57,090 –> 00:50:59,459
He always told me not to be
afraid of the mistakes.

843
00:50:59,594 –> 00:51:01,395
Don’t use your brain
the way you were using it

844
00:51:01,529 –> 00:51:05,633
30 seconds ago. You know?
In fact, don’t use it at all.

845
00:51:05,767 –> 00:51:07,200
Matt, in particular,
was just so good

846
00:51:07,334 –> 00:51:09,771
at following Jeff
wherever Jeff was going.

847
00:51:13,073 –> 00:51:16,109
That musical chemistry they had
is very hard to come by.

848
00:51:16,243 –> 00:51:17,512
My name is Jeff Buckley,

849
00:51:17,645 –> 00:51:19,446
this is my band,
and this is our tacky abode.

850
00:51:19,747 –> 00:51:21,916
On the outside, it looks like
a huge black phallus of death.

851
00:51:22,050 –> 00:51:24,484
It’s a Velcro clock.

852
00:51:24,619 –> 00:51:26,486
He’s like,
”Okay, I want you.”

853
00:51:26,988 –> 00:51:28,488
Until I got sober,

854
00:51:28,957 –> 00:51:31,960
drugs and alcohol
had been a big part of my life,

855
00:51:32,092 –> 00:51:33,393
which we connected on,

856
00:51:33,528 –> 00:51:35,797
because of, you know,
his father’s situation.

857
00:51:35,930 –> 00:51:37,699
So, it just fell out
of your pocket?

858
00:51:41,636 –> 00:51:43,538
It’s a huge cliché
that, you know,

859
00:51:43,671 –> 00:51:45,773
bands are like families.
But they are.

860
00:51:45,907 –> 00:51:46,874
Whoo!

861
00:51:50,210 –> 00:51:53,180
♪ Thank you! ♪

862
00:51:56,249 –> 00:52:01,188
The infamous
American Legion Hall concert…

863
00:52:01,923 –> 00:52:05,893
was the first one
that Jeff was in town

864
00:52:06,027 –> 00:52:09,030
since he started the tour.

865
00:52:09,162 –> 00:52:11,431
All of the relatives,
the friends of the relatives,

866
00:52:11,599 –> 00:52:14,002
the relatives of the friends
of the relatives,

867
00:52:14,134 –> 00:52:15,703
all wanted to go to the concert.

868
00:52:17,237 –> 00:52:20,875
We filled
the last two rows.

869
00:52:21,009 –> 00:52:22,510
The Tasmanian devil was…

870
00:52:22,644 –> 00:52:25,445
The… the pack showed up.

871
00:52:25,580 –> 00:52:28,950
And there was no beer left,
there was nothing left.

872
00:52:29,083 –> 00:52:32,152
Everything was, like, wiped out
before the show.

873
00:52:32,687 –> 00:52:34,022
Let’s just say that

874
00:52:34,154 –> 00:52:36,057
as soon
as there was an opportunity

875
00:52:36,189 –> 00:52:38,492
to become part
of the inner circle

876
00:52:38,626 –> 00:52:42,229
of a rockstar,
it was very attractive.

877
00:52:42,797 –> 00:52:47,300
The promoters came to me,
and said, “We have a situation.”

878
00:52:47,434 –> 00:52:48,936
I go outside and I…

879
00:52:50,571 –> 00:52:52,073
…realize it’s Jeff’s mother…

880
00:52:52,205 –> 00:52:55,409
…sitting in a car with her…
one of her girlfriends,

881
00:52:55,943 –> 00:52:57,512
just… smoking pot.

882
00:52:57,645 –> 00:52:59,279
You know,
”Hi, Gene. What’s up, hey?”

883
00:52:59,413 –> 00:53:01,949
”Well, Mary, listen,
you gotta, you know…

884
00:53:02,083 –> 00:53:04,552
you gotta curtail this.
You’re gonna get arrested.”

885
00:53:05,086 –> 00:53:07,421
And I go back inside
to tell Jeff

886
00:53:07,555 –> 00:53:09,023
that the show’s
gonna be canceled

887
00:53:09,189 –> 00:53:10,758
’cause his mother was outside
in the parking lot,

888
00:53:10,892 –> 00:53:13,193
smoking pot.

889
00:53:13,326 –> 00:53:17,832
Hey! Are you there?
This is your big, sexy son.

890
00:53:17,965 –> 00:53:21,035
I think you should really not,
like, set yourself up like that

891
00:53:21,169 –> 00:53:24,872
when you’re, like,
”Fucking light up a doob,

892
00:53:25,272 –> 00:53:26,708
light up a fucking joint.”

893
00:53:26,841 –> 00:53:29,811
“What? We’re in the parking lot.
It’s like over there…”

894
00:53:29,944 –> 00:53:33,447
“It’s California. What?”
“No, no, no, no, no.”

895
00:53:40,588 –> 00:53:43,558
We ended up in Iowa City,
and opening up for us

896
00:53:43,691 –> 00:53:46,160
were The Dambuilders
and then the Grifters.

897
00:53:46,293 –> 00:53:49,496
My booking agent said,
”Tim Buckley’s son, Jeff,

898
00:53:49,630 –> 00:53:52,633
who had taken New York by storm

899
00:53:52,767 –> 00:53:55,469
was going to be on this tour
as the headliner.”

900
00:53:56,938 –> 00:53:59,741
Joan Wasser
was one of the heavyweights

901
00:53:59,874 –> 00:54:03,978
in the music world,
being a tough-ass cool female

902
00:54:04,112 –> 00:54:07,982
coming up in the ’90s
through the music scene.

903
00:54:08,116 –> 00:54:09,717
♪ Control! ♪

904
00:54:13,286 –> 00:54:14,488
♪ Wake up… ♪

905
00:54:14,689 –> 00:54:15,957
Lots of power,
lots of shiny.

906
00:54:16,090 –> 00:54:17,558
You know, lots of shiny.

907
00:54:17,959 –> 00:54:22,897
When I saw him,
it was definitely a vibe.

908
00:54:23,030 –> 00:54:26,333
We were just sort of
checking each other out.

909
00:54:30,104 –> 00:54:35,408
♪ And I’ll rise like an ember
In your name no… ♪

910
00:54:35,543 –> 00:54:39,046
Well, Jeff stood right
in front of me the entire show

911
00:54:39,180 –> 00:54:41,883
and watched me.

912
00:54:42,183 –> 00:54:46,654
♪ I know everybody here
Wants you ♪

913
00:54:47,287 –> 00:54:51,092
He was rocking a, like,
I’m-worshipping-a-goddess vibe.

914
00:54:51,225 –> 00:54:55,663
♪ Everybody here thinks
They need you ♪

915
00:54:55,797 –> 00:54:59,734
Not subtle. Not subtle.

916
00:54:59,867 –> 00:55:02,236
And then hearing him,

917
00:55:02,369 –> 00:55:06,607
the thing that I thought of was,
”That’s Nina Simone.”

918
00:55:06,741 –> 00:55:11,612
♪ I lost myself ♪

919
00:55:11,813 –> 00:55:14,481
♪ On a cool damp night ♪

920
00:55:16,117 –> 00:55:18,920
♪ I gave myself
In that misty light ♪

921
00:55:19,386 –> 00:55:24,424
♪ I was hypnotized
By a strange delight ♪

922
00:55:24,792 –> 00:55:30,731
♪ Under a lilac tree ♪

923
00:55:30,865 –> 00:55:33,734
He sang
the whole show to me.

924
00:55:34,602 –> 00:55:35,636
It was like,

925
00:55:36,336 –> 00:55:39,339
“Man, this… this guy really
knows how to work.”

926
00:55:39,472 –> 00:55:41,075
Work me right now.

927
00:55:43,177 –> 00:55:45,913
I was feeling like,
”Oh, I got this,”

928
00:55:46,047 –> 00:55:48,583
and then being like,
”Oh, I don’t got this.”

929
00:55:48,716 –> 00:55:51,052
This person is too powerful.

930
00:55:51,185 –> 00:55:55,022
♪ Lilac wine ♪

931
00:55:55,690 –> 00:56:00,962
♪ Is sweet and heady ♪

932
00:56:01,729 –> 00:56:07,835
♪ Where’s my love? ♪

933
00:56:10,771 –> 00:56:15,276
♪ Lilac wine ♪

934
00:56:15,408 –> 00:56:21,148
♪ I feel unsteady ♪

935
00:56:21,616 –> 00:56:28,789
♪ Where’s my love? ♪

936
00:56:29,223 –> 00:56:31,259
♪ Listen to me ♪

937
00:56:31,458 –> 00:56:36,163
♪ Why is everything so hazy? ♪

938
00:56:36,496 –> 00:56:42,370
♪ Isn’t that she
Or am I just going ♪

939
00:56:42,502 –> 00:56:49,510
♪ Crazy, dear? ♪

940
00:56:52,113 –> 00:56:56,284
That night
these jocky guys

941
00:56:56,416 –> 00:56:57,885
were, like, making fun of me.

942
00:56:58,019 –> 00:57:01,055
I had this very cartoony type
of hair,

943
00:57:01,188 –> 00:57:02,823
so I was pretty used to that.

944
00:57:02,957 –> 00:57:05,559
But Jeff leapt up and said,

945
00:57:05,693 –> 00:57:09,096
”You wouldn’t know a woman
if she slapped you in the face!”

946
00:57:09,230 –> 00:57:12,733
I was like, “Oh, God,
that’s so romantic. I love it.”

947
00:57:12,867 –> 00:57:15,970
And like, “Fuck that.
I don’t need defending.”

948
00:57:16,938 –> 00:57:20,875
But I came to learn
that he was someone who was…

949
00:57:21,542 –> 00:57:24,578
a really staunch defender
of women.

950
00:57:24,712 –> 00:57:27,581
♪ I feel unsteady… ♪

951
00:57:27,715 –> 00:57:29,617
All people are sensitive,

952
00:57:29,750 –> 00:57:33,453
but his sensitivity
wasn’t crushed…

953
00:57:34,155 –> 00:57:38,559
like some men’s sensitivity
has been.

954
00:57:39,393 –> 00:57:41,329
♪ Listen to me ♪

955
00:57:41,494 –> 00:57:42,964
It stayed intact.

956
00:57:43,097 –> 00:57:46,801
♪ I cannot see clearly
Isn’t that she… ♪

957
00:57:46,934 –> 00:57:49,270
You’re talking about
two amazingly talented people

958
00:57:49,403 –> 00:57:50,404
who immediately connected.

959
00:57:50,972 –> 00:57:52,540
First thing I thought of,
“Oh, my God,

960
00:57:52,673 –> 00:57:56,811
they’re gonna become a band,
and it’s just gonna… rule.”

961
00:57:57,778 –> 00:57:59,613
♪ Yeah! Yeah! ♪

962
00:58:02,350 –> 00:58:05,319
♪ I know how you like it child
Of mine, quick and tight ♪

963
00:58:05,519 –> 00:58:08,823
♪ When girls can’t stand it
When you’re doin’ it right… ♪

964
00:58:08,956 –> 00:58:10,691
Jeff toured a lot.

965
00:58:10,825 –> 00:58:14,061
It was a slow growth
of that following.

966
00:58:15,429 –> 00:58:16,731
♪ Doin’ it right ♪

967
00:58:17,164 –> 00:58:19,834
We toured almost
consistently for two years.

968
00:58:20,668 –> 00:58:22,970
What’s life been
like since “Grace” came out?

969
00:58:23,104 –> 00:58:24,372
Work, work,
work, work, work.

970
00:58:24,505 –> 00:58:26,507
♪ I gotta kick ’em out! ♪

971
00:58:27,742 –> 00:58:32,780
His label,
they wanted him to be their…

972
00:58:34,815 –> 00:58:36,784
And he was like,
”Well, I have another idea

973
00:58:36,917 –> 00:58:38,352
of what that means.”

974
00:58:38,486 –> 00:58:42,289
Being famous without content,
that really irks me.

975
00:58:42,423 –> 00:58:46,360
He did get discredited
by certain,
like, “cool” musicians

976
00:58:46,494 –> 00:58:47,862
because of the branding.

977
00:58:48,429 –> 00:58:51,832
He was chosen to be
in People magazine’s

978
00:58:51,966 –> 00:58:54,001
”The 50 Most Beautiful People”

979
00:58:54,135 –> 00:58:55,903
or whatever the hell
that was called.

980
00:58:56,037 –> 00:58:58,873
The poor relatives, I think
one of them walked up to him,

981
00:58:59,006 –> 00:59:00,808
“Look, Jeff!
Look what I’ve got!”

982
00:59:00,941 –> 00:59:04,011
And he took her Sharpie
and just went…

983
00:59:04,945 –> 00:59:06,614
We went
to every newsstand

984
00:59:06,747 –> 00:59:09,583
and bought every single one.
He spent hundreds of dollars

985
00:59:09,717 –> 00:59:11,886
so that no one would see it
in his neighborhood.

986
00:59:12,019 –> 00:59:14,755
The entire show is dedicated
to People magazine.

987
00:59:14,889 –> 00:59:17,725
♪ Let me kick out
The jams, yeah ♪

988
00:59:17,858 –> 00:59:20,928
It was becoming an increasingly
stressful environment.

989
00:59:21,062 –> 00:59:22,463
♪ Done kick’em out! ♪

990
00:59:23,597 –> 00:59:26,300
You’re very much
a public person now.
How does that feel?

991
00:59:26,667 –> 00:59:30,337
Well… I’m public
with the camera,

992
00:59:30,471 –> 00:59:32,973
but, uh, don’t like TV.

993
00:59:34,375 –> 00:59:36,444
What does your TV station
wanna know about me?

994
00:59:47,054 –> 00:59:48,656
Once we got to Europe,

995
00:59:48,789 –> 00:59:52,626
I remember we felt a little…
…sense of relief.

996
00:59:59,934 –> 01:00:01,702
Jeff Buckley
is being hailed

997
01:00:01,836 –> 01:00:03,204
as the next Bob Dylan.

998
01:00:06,907 –> 01:00:08,776
He has talent to burn,
and we recommend

999
01:00:08,909 –> 01:00:10,512
that you give this album
a listen.

1000
01:00:12,880 –> 01:00:15,049
♪ People came there from… ♪

1001
01:00:15,182 –> 01:00:17,818
The album
was doing better over there.

1002
01:00:21,088 –> 01:00:23,791
Radiohead came
to a show in London

1003
01:00:23,924 –> 01:00:25,659
and was so inspired by Jeff

1004
01:00:25,793 –> 01:00:28,295
that they left the concert
and went right to the studio

1005
01:00:28,429 –> 01:00:30,698
and recorded
”Fake Plastic Trees.”

1006
01:00:30,831 –> 01:00:32,266
♪ Fake plas… ♪

1007
01:00:32,399 –> 01:00:34,435
In Paris,
we went to the opera

1008
01:00:34,569 –> 01:00:35,769
and walked along the Seine

1009
01:00:35,903 –> 01:00:38,038
and went to every café
that we could.

1010
01:00:40,441 –> 01:00:44,011
They fell in love with him.
And who wouldn’t fall in love

1011
01:00:44,145 –> 01:00:46,380
when you do justice
to an Edith Piaf song?

1012
01:00:46,515 –> 01:00:49,683
♪ Oh, mon amour ♪

1013
01:00:49,817 –> 01:00:51,452
What about Edith Piaf?

1014
01:00:51,620 –> 01:00:56,090
- What’s your attraction to her?
- To her sound, her voice.

1015
01:00:56,223 –> 01:00:59,493
♪ A toi toujours ♪

1016
01:00:59,628 –> 01:01:02,229
Her sexiness, the romance.

1017
01:01:03,297 –> 01:01:04,633
Her tragedy.

1018
01:01:04,765 –> 01:01:09,069
♪ Dans tes grands yeux ♪

1019
01:01:09,970 –> 01:01:11,705
No one could rock
like Jeff.

1020
01:01:12,106 –> 01:01:13,642
But once you do “Hallelujah”…

1021
01:01:13,774 –> 01:01:17,378
…God help you.

1022
01:01:31,926 –> 01:01:33,994
This is for Leonard,
wherever you are.

1023
01:01:34,128 –> 01:01:36,063
And this is for Nina Simone.

1024
01:01:39,033 –> 01:01:42,803
♪ And I ♪

1025
01:01:43,204 –> 01:01:47,841
♪ Heard there was
A secret chord ♪

1026
01:01:48,142 –> 01:01:52,079
♪ That David played
And it pleased the Lord ♪

1027
01:01:52,213 –> 01:01:58,185
♪ But you don’t really care
For music, do ya? ♪

1028
01:02:00,087 –> 01:02:04,158
♪ But it goes like this
The fourth the fifth ♪

1029
01:02:04,291 –> 01:02:08,062
♪ The minor fall
And the major lift ♪

1030
01:02:08,262 –> 01:02:14,636
♪ The baffled king
Composing Hallelujah ♪

1031
01:02:15,102 –> 01:02:18,607
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1032
01:02:18,872 –> 01:02:22,176
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1033
01:02:22,711 –> 01:02:26,080
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1034
01:02:26,447 –> 01:02:33,420
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1035
01:02:41,696 –> 01:02:43,264
We were both on the road.

1036
01:02:43,397 –> 01:02:45,466
You know, it was,
like, so romantic.

1037
01:02:45,600 –> 01:02:48,269
Like, impossibly romantic.

1038
01:02:49,738 –> 01:02:55,577
But when we were together,
we created a space

1039
01:02:55,710 –> 01:03:00,481
where nothing was too scary
to talk about.

1040
01:03:01,882 –> 01:03:04,285
We both needed that so badly.

1041
01:03:05,553 –> 01:03:09,423
♪ And she tied you
To her kitchen chair ♪

1042
01:03:09,557 –> 01:03:13,360
♪ She broke your throne
And she cut your hair ♪

1043
01:03:13,494 –> 01:03:19,833
♪ And from your lips
She drew the Hallelujah ♪

1044
01:03:21,802 –> 01:03:24,305
Interviewer:

1045
01:03:39,219 –> 01:03:41,355
My high school bullies
are undoubtedly living

1046
01:03:41,488 –> 01:03:43,991
a completely pathetic life.

1047
01:03:44,124 –> 01:03:47,227
♪ Maybe there’s a God above ♪

1048
01:03:47,729 –> 01:03:50,632
♪ But all I’ve ever learned
From love ♪

1049
01:03:50,765 –> 01:03:56,303
♪ Was how to shoot somebody
Who outdrew ya ♪

1050
01:03:57,806 –> 01:04:01,909
We felt like
we found the person

1051
01:04:02,042 –> 01:04:04,912
that we felt the most safe with.

1052
01:04:05,714 –> 01:04:07,981
Nothing was off-limits.

1053
01:04:08,115 –> 01:04:09,551
♪ And it’s a broken… ♪

1054
01:04:09,684 –> 01:04:13,120
We could just be free, really,
for the first time.

1055
01:04:13,253 –> 01:04:15,889
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1056
01:04:16,791 –> 01:04:19,860
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1057
01:04:20,628 –> 01:04:23,897
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1058
01:04:24,799 –> 01:04:31,438
♪ Hallelu… ♪

1059
01:04:35,876 –> 01:04:38,445
♪ Jah ♪

1060
01:04:45,085 –> 01:04:46,186
Thanks a lot.

1061
01:04:51,659 –> 01:04:54,328
What is
the connecting thread?
Because you’ll do a cover

1062
01:04:54,461 –> 01:04:58,966
of Bad Brains or of The Smiths
or of Edith Piaf or…

1063
01:04:59,099 –> 01:05:02,369
Um… Probably,
my mindless hero worship.

1064
01:05:04,304 –> 01:05:06,173
♪ Hey, hey, mama said
The way you move ♪

1065
01:05:06,306 –> 01:05:08,409
♪ Gonna make you sweat
Gonna make you groove ♪

1066
01:05:08,543 –> 01:05:10,244
This is Jimmy Page
and this is…

1067
01:05:10,411 –> 01:05:13,414
Uh, I’m Robert Plant and, uh,
we’re at the 99th festival

1068
01:05:13,548 –> 01:05:16,216
of this tour Europennes.
And it’s, uh…

1069
01:05:16,350 –> 01:05:18,853
– Sorry, “Eurockéennes.”
– I don’t care.

1070
01:05:19,386 –> 01:05:21,656
We’re at
the Eurockéennes festival, eh?

1071
01:05:22,156 –> 01:05:23,558
Vive le rock!

1072
01:05:29,496 –> 01:05:30,964
I don’t think
Jeff had ever seen

1073
01:05:31,098 –> 01:05:32,966
Page and Plant live.

1074
01:05:33,100 –> 01:05:35,135
My main
musical influences,

1075
01:05:35,269 –> 01:05:40,307
love, anger, depression, joy
and Zeppelin.

1076
01:05:40,441 –> 01:05:42,142
It was like he was going
to Mecca or something.

1077
01:05:42,276 –> 01:05:46,079
♪ My life happily without ya ♪

1078
01:05:46,848 –> 01:05:48,683
Backstage at the festival,

1079
01:05:48,817 –> 01:05:51,351
I felt something
over my shoulder.

1080
01:05:51,920 –> 01:05:53,086
It was like heat.

1081
01:05:54,288 –> 01:05:57,826
And I turned around,
Jeff was walking towards me.

1082
01:05:58,325 –> 01:06:00,895
He put his hand
on my shoulder, said, “Hey,

1083
01:06:01,028 –> 01:06:02,697
I love
your slide-guitar playing.

1084
01:06:02,831 –> 01:06:05,432
Could you show me
some slide-guitar stuff?”
And I said,

1085
01:06:05,966 –> 01:06:07,836
“Well, Jeff,
you can probably show me

1086
01:06:07,968 –> 01:06:09,671
some…
some slide-guitar stuff.”

1087
01:06:09,804 –> 01:06:11,506
He said, “No, please,
show me,” you know?

1088
01:06:11,906 –> 01:06:13,875
And he said, “Hey,
Page and Plant are playing.”

1089
01:06:14,007 –> 01:06:15,944
”When I… When I get off,
if we go straight there,

1090
01:06:16,076 –> 01:06:18,880
we’ll make it. We’ll meet
at the side of the stage.”

1091
01:06:19,012 –> 01:06:22,249
And we were both really excited,
obviously, to see them.

1092
01:06:27,087 –> 01:06:28,690
After Jeff’s show,

1093
01:06:28,823 –> 01:06:31,124
I go around,
where I’m in the pit.

1094
01:06:34,696 –> 01:06:36,997
We’re looking for Jeff
constantly.

1095
01:06:38,933 –> 01:06:41,435
Trying to watch the show.
We’re trying to look for Jeff.

1096
01:06:43,070 –> 01:06:44,171
We looked up.

1097
01:06:45,305 –> 01:06:47,407
He’s just out of my periphery.

1098
01:06:48,877 –> 01:06:50,444
Oh, shit!

1099
01:06:50,912 –> 01:06:53,615
There’s Jeff, hanging,
all the way up,

1100
01:06:53,748 –> 01:06:54,649
off the scaffolding.

1101
01:06:54,782 –> 01:06:55,683
♪ Oh ♪

1102
01:06:57,084 –> 01:07:04,526
Zeppelin is at full throttle,
and Jeff is with every decibel

1103
01:07:04,659 –> 01:07:06,694
coursing through his veins.

1104
01:07:06,828 –> 01:07:09,564
You can call it death-defying.

1105
01:07:13,300 –> 01:07:16,103
♪ Oh-oh! ♪

1106
01:07:16,270 –> 01:07:19,674
The volume of music
as it passes into your body

1107
01:07:19,807 –> 01:07:22,844
turns you into an instrument
that your own ears hear.

1108
01:07:23,477 –> 01:07:26,246
There’s a great deal of comfort,
in the same way

1109
01:07:26,380 –> 01:07:29,416
that a baby’s greatly comforted
by their mother.

1110
01:07:32,252 –> 01:07:34,656
He looked at us
and gave us a wave, like,

1111
01:07:34,789 –> 01:07:38,793
like… said,
like, “Come on up.”

1112
01:07:39,459 –> 01:07:41,663
Like, the water’s warm.

1113
01:07:45,065 –> 01:07:49,169
Music, it was my mother.
It was my father.

1114
01:07:57,645 –> 01:07:59,379
When he was back
in New York,

1115
01:07:59,514 –> 01:08:02,550
we went and saw
Nusrat play at Town Hall.

1116
01:08:06,353 –> 01:08:09,089
After the show,
we went backstage.

1117
01:08:09,222 –> 01:08:12,292
Nusrat, very, like, placid.

1118
01:08:12,426 –> 01:08:16,030
And here was this, like,
bouncing-around Jeff.

1119
01:08:16,564 –> 01:08:18,298
Nusrat did not speak
any English,

1120
01:08:18,432 –> 01:08:20,001
and Jeff was trying
to connect with him,

1121
01:08:20,133 –> 01:08:23,103
and then he just started s…
Oh.

1122
01:08:36,517 –> 01:08:38,786
Nusrat, like,
looked at him, like…

1123
01:08:40,253 –> 01:08:41,856
“What the fuck is going on?”

1124
01:08:47,562 –> 01:08:49,496
The smile came
on his face,

1125
01:08:49,631 –> 01:08:53,034
and it was just instant respect
and love.

1126
01:08:56,370 –> 01:08:58,573
That
is a universal language.

1127
01:09:01,542 –> 01:09:03,443
I didn’t only
just listen to things.

1128
01:09:03,578 –> 01:09:07,582
I totally, absolutely
lionized everybody

1129
01:09:08,016 –> 01:09:09,149
having anything to do with it.

1130
01:09:11,519 –> 01:09:15,890
Some of Jeff’s heroes
eventually became fans of him.

1131
01:09:16,557 –> 01:09:18,960
I was at a show at Roseland
where Paul McCartney

1132
01:09:19,093 –> 01:09:22,664
and Linda McCartney came.
And it was just amazing.

1133
01:09:22,797 –> 01:09:25,700
There is this one shot where
he’s looking at me going like…

1134
01:09:25,833 –> 01:09:27,434
“Can you believe it?”

1135
01:09:28,736 –> 01:09:30,571
But some of those heroes

1136
01:09:30,705 –> 01:09:33,775
also recognized
his father’s work as well.

1137
01:09:33,908 –> 01:09:36,811
That was difficult for him
’cause, like, Linda McCartney

1138
01:09:36,944 –> 01:09:39,747
knew his father better
than he did.

1139
01:09:42,984 –> 01:09:46,219
In these situations,
I’m hoping that I’m understood.

1140
01:09:47,454 –> 01:09:49,891
But with comparisons,
I’m not understood.

1141
01:09:50,024 –> 01:09:51,291
I have my own way.

1142
01:09:52,160 –> 01:09:56,363
Jeff would buy all
of Tim’s CDs at Tower Records,

1143
01:09:56,898 –> 01:09:59,567
listen to them
and then throw them out.

1144
01:10:00,168 –> 01:10:04,505
♪ If it keeps on rainin'
Levee’s gonna break ♪

1145
01:10:04,639 –> 01:10:06,541
Led Zeppelin
was being inducted in ’95

1146
01:10:06,674 –> 01:10:08,009
into the Rock & Roll
Hall of Fame.

1147
01:10:08,142 –> 01:10:09,610
♪ If it keeps on rainin’… ♪

1148
01:10:09,844 –> 01:10:12,680
I’d never seen Jeff
so starstruck.

1149
01:10:13,447 –> 01:10:14,982
And he just started pointing,

1150
01:10:15,116 –> 01:10:19,120
“You’re the one that’s been
in my head all these years.”

1151
01:10:19,252 –> 01:10:20,588
“It’s you.”

1152
01:10:21,956 –> 01:10:23,891
At one point
during the evening,

1153
01:10:24,025 –> 01:10:26,894
Robert Plant said something
to Jeff, like,

1154
01:10:27,028 –> 01:10:29,429
“You’re the greatest new singer
in the world.”

1155
01:10:30,565 –> 01:10:34,234
It freaked Jeff out.
He turned white.

1156
01:10:34,836 –> 01:10:38,106
Got up, I don’t know
what he did, where he went,

1157
01:10:38,238 –> 01:10:40,108
but he was missing
for, like, two days.

1158
01:10:40,608 –> 01:10:42,510
Hi, it’s me. Uh…

1159
01:10:42,643 –> 01:10:44,912
Where you’ve been?
Where are you?

1160
01:10:45,046 –> 01:10:47,215
Hi, Jeff.
I haven’t heard from you. Um,

1161
01:10:47,347 –> 01:10:48,616
I assume
you’re blowing me off.

1162
01:10:48,750 –> 01:10:50,417
It’s like you’ve disappeared.

1163
01:10:50,551 –> 01:10:52,987
Where could you be?
Where… where could you be?

1164
01:10:53,121 –> 01:10:56,323
This is your mom.
 You can call me.

1165
01:10:59,927 –> 01:11:01,796
I need to hear from you now.

1166
01:11:01,929 –> 01:11:04,632
I noticed
Jeff’s depression started

1167
01:11:04,766 –> 01:11:06,100
started to kick in.

1168
01:11:06,734 –> 01:11:08,202
Your mailbox is full.

1169
01:11:09,103 –> 01:11:11,038
There was so much
on his mind,

1170
01:11:11,172 –> 01:11:13,074
but he wasn’t talking about it.

1171
01:11:13,207 –> 01:11:14,976
And he just felt heavy.

1172
01:11:28,288 –> 01:11:29,690
We all, like,

1173
01:11:29,824 –> 01:11:32,160
experimented
with taking drugs and stuff.

1174
01:11:32,727 –> 01:11:34,629
It was sometimes a bit crazy,
but, like,

1175
01:11:35,129 –> 01:11:38,398
he… I never got, like,
an addict vibe from him at all.

1176
01:11:38,900 –> 01:11:41,669
Yeah, there was dipping
and dabbling and stuff.

1177
01:11:42,369 –> 01:11:43,938
Some more than others.

1178
01:11:44,972 –> 01:11:46,808
I teach you
no more karate! You…

1179
01:11:46,941 –> 01:11:48,475
But I couldn’t be
around it.

1180
01:11:50,244 –> 01:11:52,713
Next year, then, will that mean
a new Jeff Buckley album?

1181
01:11:53,147 –> 01:11:54,347
I have to work on it this year.

1182
01:11:54,481 –> 01:11:56,818
– Mm.
– So, something will be out…

1183
01:11:57,685 –> 01:12:00,320
No. You know what?
I can’t make any promises now.

1184
01:12:00,453 –> 01:12:02,389
I’ll be a corpse
by then.

1185
01:12:04,125 –> 01:12:06,227
Ladies and gentlemen,
Jeff Buckley.

1186
01:12:06,359 –> 01:12:07,695
It’s a great… Thank you, sir.

1187
01:12:10,330 –> 01:12:12,900
I feel like,
as his fame grew,

1188
01:12:13,034 –> 01:12:17,104
the demands of success
started to irritate him.

1189
01:12:18,206 –> 01:12:20,274
The label was kind of
breathing down his back

1190
01:12:20,407 –> 01:12:21,843
for the second album.

1191
01:12:22,342 –> 01:12:26,747
I think he was weighed down
by the debt that he owed them.

1192
01:12:27,414 –> 01:12:31,418
Millions of dollars
in debt with no hits

1193
01:12:31,552 –> 01:12:33,054
on your next record, yeah.

1194
01:12:33,486 –> 01:12:35,488
Well, you’re
never gonna get out of the hole.

1195
01:12:36,090 –> 01:12:39,894
No one ever gets out of owing
a record label money

1196
01:12:40,027 –> 01:12:41,662
because that’s how
it’s structured.

1197
01:12:42,930 –> 01:12:47,535
That probably
would’ve been very scary

1198
01:12:47,668 –> 01:12:49,737
to Jeff, and maybe he thought

1199
01:12:49,871 –> 01:12:54,275
– that the type of deal
that he had may have been…

1200
01:12:54,407 –> 01:12:57,011
…a little bit of a deal
with the devil, sometimes.

1201
01:12:57,144 –> 01:12:58,679
That’s your bed.

1202
01:12:58,813 –> 01:13:00,815
And you made it
and you have to lie in it.

1203
01:13:00,948 –> 01:13:05,152
Jeff started to spiral
around this fear that he has

1204
01:13:05,319 –> 01:13:07,555
of the loss
of his artistic freedom.

1205
01:13:08,356 –> 01:13:11,559
Columbia Records’ meetings
would be very…

1206
01:13:13,160 –> 01:13:14,695
full… full of pressure,
you know,

1207
01:13:14,829 –> 01:13:16,764
when Jeff didn’t wanna do
something.

1208
01:13:16,898 –> 01:13:19,100
Every parasite needs its host,
and we are them.

1209
01:13:19,233 –> 01:13:21,434
– I’m Jeff Buckley.
– And I’m Michael Tighe.

1210
01:13:21,569 –> 01:13:23,403
We’ve been guest-parasite
hosting tonight.

1211
01:13:26,439 –> 01:13:29,577
The label wanted
the next record to come out,

1212
01:13:29,710 –> 01:13:31,145
but they were still touring.

1213
01:13:31,279 –> 01:13:34,715
“Make another… album.”

1214
01:13:34,849 –> 01:13:38,451
“Please.” Oh, my God.

1215
01:13:41,088 –> 01:13:43,257
You’ve taken
your time, haven’t you?

1216
01:13:43,391 –> 01:13:44,592
I mean… You haven’t rushed

1217
01:13:44,759 –> 01:13:46,294
into recording
the follow-up album.

1218
01:13:46,459 –> 01:13:48,195
Only because of being
on the road so long.

1219
01:13:48,329 –> 01:13:50,064
Do you anticipate
that it’s gonna take…

1220
01:13:50,197 –> 01:13:51,766
- months and months?
- If it takes any longer,

1221
01:13:51,899 –> 01:13:53,567
you’ll find me swinging
from a noose.

1222
01:13:54,268 –> 01:13:57,138
Get in the van,
eight hours a day, every day,

1223
01:13:57,271 –> 01:13:58,940
for, like,
two-and-a-half years, bro.

1224
01:13:59,073 –> 01:14:01,742
Like, can I just have
some fucking space?

1225
01:14:01,876 –> 01:14:05,079
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

1226
01:14:05,379 –> 01:14:06,647
♪ Yeah ♪

1227
01:14:08,816 –> 01:14:12,687
Then? I was nuts.
I was fucking nuts.

1228
01:14:12,820 –> 01:14:14,454
And the last thing I need

1229
01:14:14,588 –> 01:14:17,959
is another nuts motherfucker
next to me.

1230
01:14:19,226 –> 01:14:20,962
All right!

1231
01:14:21,095 –> 01:14:23,597
And obviously
Jesus on the drums.

1232
01:14:24,265 –> 01:14:25,199
Thank you!

1233
01:14:26,834 –> 01:14:28,803
You could really
feel the disconnect

1234
01:14:28,936 –> 01:14:30,972
between Jeff and Matt.

1235
01:14:32,306 –> 01:14:33,541
And I think Jeff felt…

1236
01:14:34,141 –> 01:14:36,844
like he was being abandoned
by a brother.

1237
01:14:38,079 –> 01:14:41,615
♪ Sometimes I feel
Like I don’t have a partner ♪

1238
01:14:46,187 –> 01:14:48,622
So, Matty quit
the band, said he was done.

1239
01:14:50,825 –> 01:14:54,228
I myself am erratic.
Music is erratic.

1240
01:14:54,362 –> 01:14:56,130
If people look upon music

1241
01:14:56,263 –> 01:14:58,199
as something
to have control over

1242
01:14:58,332 –> 01:15:01,902
or something to be…
uniform and… and predictable,

1243
01:15:02,036 –> 01:15:03,971
then it’s their funeral.

1244
01:15:06,374 –> 01:15:08,075
I’m gonna come home.

1245
01:15:08,876 –> 01:15:10,077
I’ll record, definitely,

1246
01:15:10,211 –> 01:15:11,412
I just wanna come home
and experiment

1247
01:15:11,545 –> 01:15:13,914
and get all these ideas out.

1248
01:15:15,683 –> 01:15:17,852
Where would you like to see
yourself in ten years?

1249
01:15:17,985 –> 01:15:19,620
Ten years from now.

1250
01:15:19,754 –> 01:15:22,056
I don’t see myself ten years
from now. At all.

1251
01:15:25,893 –> 01:15:27,795
“I just don’t.”

1252
01:15:28,829 –> 01:15:32,666
Just a blank movie screen.
Just a void.

1253
01:15:33,534 –> 01:15:34,735
What can I tell you?

1254
01:15:38,572 –> 01:15:42,877
I heard “Grace”
in the summer of ’96

1255
01:15:43,010 –> 01:15:46,447
and within two weeks,
I would meet Jeff.

1256
01:15:46,580 –> 01:15:49,683
“We need a drummer. We’d love…
You come, try out.”

1257
01:15:49,817 –> 01:15:51,419
♪ You and I ♪

1258
01:15:51,552 –> 01:15:55,489
Jeff had so much…
fear around this record.

1259
01:15:55,956 –> 01:15:57,224
He wasn’t ready.

1260
01:15:58,225 –> 01:16:00,394
He is questioning
everything.

1261
01:16:00,529 –> 01:16:04,331
”Was the first album a fluke?
Am I an imposter?”

1262
01:16:07,501 –> 01:16:12,541
”Grace” was a compilation
of everything that he had done

1263
01:16:12,673 –> 01:16:14,308
until he was 27.

1264
01:16:14,442 –> 01:16:17,745
He wondered, “Do I have
another record in me?”

1265
01:16:17,878 –> 01:16:19,947
”Do I need another 27 years?”

1266
01:16:20,081 –> 01:16:22,116
Then you have
the record company guys

1267
01:16:22,249 –> 01:16:25,252
coming down to check in on us
and see our progress.

1268
01:16:25,386 –> 01:16:27,221
I was like,
“Are you kidding me?”

1269
01:16:28,322 –> 01:16:31,258
We wanted to be able
to supply the inspiration

1270
01:16:31,392 –> 01:16:33,094
that would get him
to the next level,

1271
01:16:33,227 –> 01:16:35,696
but I think he felt he had
to do that on his own.

1272
01:16:35,830 –> 01:16:41,702
♪ Sleeping with his arms
Around the hips of fate ♪

1273
01:16:42,136 –> 01:16:46,440
♪ And his tears
Scattered round the world ♪

1274
01:16:46,575 –> 01:16:51,912
♪ Angel, go give him
His dreams ♪

1275
01:16:52,046 –> 01:16:58,986
♪ And my cold, black visions ♪

1276
01:17:01,088 –> 01:17:03,924
So many of the people
he admired had…

1277
01:17:04,725 –> 01:17:06,994
somehow self-destructed.

1278
01:17:07,128 –> 01:17:12,066
People think that, mm…
my father and the EP

1279
01:17:12,199 –> 01:17:13,734
is all there is to talk about.

1280
01:17:14,603 –> 01:17:17,506
And then
to have Jeff come from a father

1281
01:17:17,638 –> 01:17:19,306
who had died young,

1282
01:17:19,440 –> 01:17:22,243
he was really trying
to be healthier.

1283
01:17:23,344 –> 01:17:25,980
On his 29th birthday,
Jeff turned to me and said,

1284
01:17:26,113 –> 01:17:28,883
“I’ve now outlived my father.”

1285
01:17:29,016 –> 01:17:33,020
It was a really strange reality
for him to face.

1286
01:17:33,154 –> 01:17:36,525
♪ Eyes to the burning… ♪

1287
01:17:37,559 –> 01:17:42,129
He said… “I have
to tell you something about me.

1288
01:17:42,763 –> 01:17:44,732
I’m not gonna last that long.

1289
01:17:47,001 –> 01:17:50,037
I just have to tell you
what it feels like,

1290
01:17:50,171 –> 01:17:52,006
because I wanna warn you.”

1291
01:17:52,940 –> 01:17:55,142
And I said,
”I’m not going anywhere.”

1292
01:17:57,978 –> 01:18:00,414
And because
of his father dying…

1293
01:18:02,082 –> 01:18:04,752
I thought,
“Of course, you think that.”

1294
01:18:04,885 –> 01:18:07,087
“That makes
all the sense in the world.”

1295
01:18:16,531 –> 01:18:20,167
♪ Don’t be like the one
Who made me so old ♪

1296
01:18:20,301 –> 01:18:24,772
♪ Don’t be like the one
Who left behind his name ♪

1297
01:18:25,439 –> 01:18:29,977
♪ ‘Cause they’re waiting for you
Like I waited for mine ♪

1298
01:18:30,110 –> 01:18:33,814
♪ And nobody ever came ♪

1299
01:18:33,948 –> 01:18:37,051
♪ Nobody ever… ♪

1300
01:18:46,493 –> 01:18:48,963
At the end of three years
of touring, who do you know?

1301
01:18:49,997 –> 01:18:51,832
What sort of life do you have?

1302
01:18:52,366 –> 01:18:54,501
It’s a little corrosive
and a little frustrating.

1303
01:18:54,636 –> 01:18:56,904
And, uh, that’s why
I have to go away.

1304
01:18:57,905 –> 01:19:00,508
I have to find someplace
and really sink into it.

1305
01:19:21,362 –> 01:19:24,265
Jeff found this house
on Rembert Street.

1306
01:19:26,701 –> 01:19:33,274
He didn’t have a lawnmower,
so it became overgrown.

1307
01:19:35,042 –> 01:19:38,513
I would visit him
for a week a month.

1308
01:19:41,115 –> 01:19:45,953
I remember lying with him
in the grass.

1309
01:19:49,189 –> 01:19:50,991
No one could see us.

1310
01:19:52,226 –> 01:19:54,629
Joan had said to me,
”Take care of Jeff.”

1311
01:19:54,763 –> 01:19:58,799
“Keep his feet on the ground.”
And I took that seriously.

1312
01:20:01,268 –> 01:20:06,006
There seemed to be…
some normalcy, some grounding.

1313
01:20:06,140 –> 01:20:08,409
– Some cooking.
– Uh, some cooking, food.

1314
01:20:09,143 –> 01:20:11,513
And I feel
that Jeff came here

1315
01:20:11,912 –> 01:20:15,482
where there’s not as much
external stimulation…

1316
01:20:16,817 –> 01:20:19,186
in order to process…

1317
01:20:21,221 –> 01:20:23,290
and not just to create.

1318
01:20:23,792 –> 01:20:29,930
♪ Take the pain
Until it all rings hollow ♪

1319
01:20:31,700 –> 01:20:33,668
Without ordinary life,
there’s no art.

1320
01:20:36,970 –> 01:20:41,942
Balanced meals. Reading,
sleeping, relationships.

1321
01:20:43,844 –> 01:20:47,782
♪ Lilac wine ♪

1322
01:20:47,915 –> 01:20:49,183
Love.

1323
01:20:51,085 –> 01:20:57,024
♪ I feel I’m ready ♪

1324
01:20:57,157 –> 01:21:00,027
It felt like
he felt safe there.

1325
01:21:01,862 –> 01:21:05,299
He would wear my dresses
in the house sometimes,

1326
01:21:05,899 –> 01:21:07,501
and loved wearing them.

1327
01:21:09,069 –> 01:21:11,539
He just wanted to be anonymous

1328
01:21:11,673 –> 01:21:15,309
and be able to talk to anybody
in the bookstore,

1329
01:21:15,744 –> 01:21:18,979
not worrying
if they were talking to him

1330
01:21:19,113 –> 01:21:21,115
because they knew who he was.

1331
01:21:28,922 –> 01:21:32,126
Early one morning,
I went to pick him up,

1332
01:21:32,694 –> 01:21:34,395
and he was crying.

1333
01:21:34,529 –> 01:21:36,598
I said, “We wanna talk about
what’s going on.”

1334
01:21:36,731 –> 01:21:39,500
And he said
it had to do with his mom.

1335
01:21:40,134 –> 01:21:42,302
Yeah, well…

1336
01:21:44,706 –> 01:21:46,974
One day, I went to visit
a friend in Los Angeles.

1337
01:21:47,107 –> 01:21:49,076
I didn’t have Internet
at the time.

1338
01:21:49,476 –> 01:21:51,646
And she had a computer
all set up, and she said,

1339
01:21:51,780 –> 01:21:54,716
”Oh, you know, here’s
a chat room all about Jeff.”

1340
01:21:54,849 –> 01:21:57,251
So, I sat there and read
some of the comments,

1341
01:21:57,384 –> 01:21:58,952
and they were
just a bunch of bullshit.

1342
01:22:00,588 –> 01:22:03,023
So, I said,
”Hi, I’m his mom.”

1343
01:22:03,157 –> 01:22:05,959
”I want you to know
none of that is true.”

1344
01:22:06,795 –> 01:22:08,095
Well…

1345
01:22:09,329 –> 01:22:11,131
…that did not go over well.

1346
01:22:11,265 –> 01:22:14,067
It got back to his manager
that I was,

1347
01:22:14,201 –> 01:22:16,638
you know,
“dealing with the fan club”

1348
01:22:16,771 –> 01:22:19,373
and saying things
that he didn’t want me to say,

1349
01:22:19,507 –> 01:22:22,443
et cetera, et cetera.
And he got really pissed at me.

1350
01:22:22,577 –> 01:22:25,212
Oh, hey, mama.

1351
01:22:25,345 –> 01:22:28,081
You’ve gotta fucking
grow up, all right?

1352
01:22:28,482 –> 01:22:31,653
You can’t be a girl anymore,
ma, you gotta be a woman.

1353
01:22:32,186 –> 01:22:33,420
I had to be the man.

1354
01:22:33,555 –> 01:22:35,489
I had to be the man
in your house.

1355
01:22:36,925 –> 01:22:40,427
Just get the anger and the pain
that was rested upon you.

1356
01:22:40,562 –> 01:22:43,063
You get rid of that shit.

1357
01:22:43,197 –> 01:22:44,298
’Cause that’s in me.

1358
01:22:44,965 –> 01:22:48,135
Everything you experienced
at home, it’s in me.

1359
01:22:54,843 –> 01:22:57,177
We never had a “falling out.”

1360
01:22:57,946 –> 01:22:59,379
And it was serious.

1361
01:22:59,514 –> 01:23:01,448
And we didn’t spend Christmas
together that year.

1362
01:23:01,583 –> 01:23:05,587
He went to Northern California
and spent it with his stepdad.

1363
01:23:13,895 –> 01:23:18,298
Jeff got real serious
and turned, took my hands,

1364
01:23:18,432 –> 01:23:21,268
looked down, very dejected,

1365
01:23:21,870 –> 01:23:25,472
and said very quietly,
“I don’t know how to be a man.”

1366
01:23:38,720 –> 01:23:41,355
He was looking
at who raised him

1367
01:23:41,488 –> 01:23:44,258
and formed his ability

1368
01:23:44,391 –> 01:23:47,127
to deal with life
on a day-to-day basis.

1369
01:23:47,896 –> 01:23:51,465
He was looking
for answers, really,

1370
01:23:51,866 –> 01:23:53,467
from a ghost, from his father.

1371
01:24:01,208 –> 01:24:05,178
♪ Once I was a soldier ♪

1372
01:24:06,948 –> 01:24:10,785
♪ And I fought
On foreign sands for you ♪

1373
01:24:10,952 –> 01:24:14,689
Jeff could shift gears,
though, very quickly.

1374
01:24:19,493 –> 01:24:22,229
His mind worked like a… radio

1375
01:24:22,362 –> 01:24:25,465
that was tuned
to all frequencies at once.

1376
01:24:30,437 –> 01:24:32,607
♪ Manic depression… ♪

1377
01:24:34,474 –> 01:24:38,312
How you doin’?
Hi. Hi. Hello.

1378
01:24:39,146 –> 01:24:40,048
I wanted to, uh,

1379
01:24:40,848 –> 01:24:43,885
share a little bit
of what’s happening with me.

1380
01:24:45,019 –> 01:24:46,688
We’re in big trouble over here.

1381
01:24:46,821 –> 01:24:48,723
He said,

1382
01:24:48,856 –> 01:24:50,290
”I realized something.”

1383
01:24:50,424 –> 01:24:52,694
“I think I’m manic depressive.”

1384
01:24:53,695 –> 01:24:55,262
I didn’t know what that meant.

1385
01:24:55,429 –> 01:24:57,097
I thought immediately
of the Jimi Hendrix song.

1386
01:24:57,230 –> 01:24:59,099
♪ Yeah ♪

1387
01:24:59,801 –> 01:25:04,438
We know so much now about
chemical imbalances and stuff.

1388
01:25:04,572 –> 01:25:08,943
And we just… I didn’t.
And nobody did then.

1389
01:25:14,114 –> 01:25:16,216
He was
in a really heightened state

1390
01:25:16,350 –> 01:25:20,253
and was having
really disturbing visions,

1391
01:25:20,788 –> 01:25:22,857
like visiting the devil.

1392
01:25:23,323 –> 01:25:25,059
He took me into the attic.

1393
01:25:25,192 –> 01:25:28,596
There was a dead bird
laying on the floor

1394
01:25:28,730 –> 01:25:30,898
and his black skull candle.

1395
01:25:32,533 –> 01:25:35,235
He sent a fax
to the office and he’s like,

1396
01:25:35,369 –> 01:25:37,639
“I got the cover
for the next album.”

1397
01:25:40,407 –> 01:25:43,176
We comment,
”And this is too X-rated.”

1398
01:25:43,310 –> 01:25:45,278
”We can’t send this to Sony.”

1399
01:25:45,713 –> 01:25:47,949
He said that he dreamed
he had a brain tumor

1400
01:25:48,082 –> 01:25:51,184
and he thought
that he was going to die.

1401
01:25:51,753 –> 01:25:55,023
It was
what I understand now

1402
01:25:55,155 –> 01:25:56,691
to be a psychotic break.

1403
01:25:57,324 –> 01:25:59,761
The same thing
was going on with Hendrix

1404
01:25:59,961 –> 01:26:01,529
and Joplin and Morrison.

1405
01:26:01,663 –> 01:26:03,665
Chemical imbalance mixed
with some sort of trauma

1406
01:26:03,798 –> 01:26:06,668
that’s only sustainable
for so much time

1407
01:26:06,801 –> 01:26:09,937
until either it gets fixed
or it fixes you.

1408
01:26:10,972 –> 01:26:12,507
I’ll never forget,
he always said,

1409
01:26:12,640 –> 01:26:15,442
”I’m not gonna end up
like my father,

1410
01:26:15,877 –> 01:26:17,277
with a tag on my toe.”

1411
01:26:24,251 –> 01:26:26,420
Jeff had gone
to the zoo numerous times

1412
01:26:26,554 –> 01:26:29,289
and loved the butterfly house.

1413
01:26:34,696 –> 01:26:36,463
But he felt like
the guy working

1414
01:26:36,597 –> 01:26:40,968
in the butterfly house
was mistreating the chrysalis.

1415
01:26:42,436 –> 01:26:45,907
He felt
he could be more gentle.

1416
01:26:49,644 –> 01:26:51,679
Hi, Rebecca. It’s Jeff.

1417
01:26:52,279 –> 01:26:56,483
Sweet dreams and, uh,
play lots of music.

1418
01:26:57,118 –> 01:26:58,886
Sing beautiful songs.

1419
01:26:59,987 –> 01:27:02,590
The last conversation
we had,

1420
01:27:02,724 –> 01:27:05,560
he woke me up with a phone call.

1421
01:27:12,200 –> 01:27:14,501
He was wanting
to clarify the past.

1422
01:27:15,069 –> 01:27:21,576
♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪

1423
01:27:21,709 –> 01:27:23,343
He was apologizing.

1424
01:27:24,545 –> 01:27:28,116
I remember saying,
“It takes two, you know,

1425
01:27:28,248 –> 01:27:31,719
to… to mess things up
the way we did, and this is…

1426
01:27:31,853 –> 01:27:33,054
It’s all good.”

1427
01:27:33,755 –> 01:27:35,757
He said he was doing work
on his childhood

1428
01:27:35,890 –> 01:27:39,193
and, uh, that they were looking
for someone to help him,

1429
01:27:39,326 –> 01:27:40,862
presumably a counselor.

1430
01:27:40,995 –> 01:27:43,396
I’m gonna work
my ass off, baby.

1431
01:27:43,798 –> 01:27:46,000
And, uh, I’ll see you
on the other side.

1432
01:27:47,367 –> 01:27:49,971
For, like, two weeks,
he, like, just called everybody

1433
01:27:50,104 –> 01:27:54,675
he knew, just to,
like, have… contact.

1434
01:27:58,813 –> 01:28:01,115
I remembered him
calling me and saying,

1435
01:28:01,249 –> 01:28:04,218
”I realized that you were right
about stuff and…”

1436
01:28:04,351 –> 01:28:07,522
I, you know, I wasn’t even sure
what he meant by that

1437
01:28:07,655 –> 01:28:10,490
and I didn’t know
how to follow it up and…

1438
01:28:11,526 –> 01:28:12,693
It’s sad.

1439
01:28:13,995 –> 01:28:18,666
Jeff was very quiet
and didn’t say anything.

1440
01:28:19,534 –> 01:28:21,002
I told him I loved him.

1441
01:28:21,769 –> 01:28:26,707
♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪

1442
01:28:26,841 –> 01:28:31,646
I said to him, “I have photos
of you from your childhood.”

1443
01:28:31,779 –> 01:28:34,916
”Would you like me
to send them to you?”

1444
01:28:35,049 –> 01:28:37,317
And, like, in a really
soft voice, he said,

1445
01:28:37,450 –> 01:28:38,986
”I’d like that.”

1446
01:28:40,555 –> 01:28:45,325
I said, “You just got
to let go and not care…

1447
01:28:46,561 –> 01:28:48,629
if mistakes are made.”

1448
01:29:04,344 –> 01:29:10,350
Barristers became
his second Sin-e of a kind

1449
01:29:11,052 –> 01:29:14,622
where he could go
and work out music…

1450
01:29:14,755 –> 01:29:16,123
♪ Fall in light ♪

1451
01:29:16,290 –> 01:29:20,427
…without having
the entirety of, say,

1452
01:29:20,561 –> 01:29:22,697
New York City find out about it.

1453
01:29:23,264 –> 01:29:26,366
♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪

1454
01:29:26,499 –> 01:29:29,704
I have been everything
on stage. I’ve been wrong.

1455
01:29:29,837 –> 01:29:31,539
I’ve been completely ugly.
I’ve been stupid.

1456
01:29:31,973 –> 01:29:34,775
I’ve been angry.
I’ve been totally in love.

1457
01:29:34,909 –> 01:29:37,511
I’ve been beautiful.
I’ve been hideous.

1458
01:29:37,645 –> 01:29:39,347
I’ve… I’ve lost my pants.

1459
01:29:40,181 –> 01:29:43,150
Uh, but I’ve… I’ve
never been bored.

1460
01:29:43,284 –> 01:29:46,921
I’ve never been dead on stage.
I’ve never been dead.

1461
01:29:48,055 –> 01:29:50,825
♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪

1462
01:29:50,958 –> 01:29:53,060
He left that
on my answering machine.

1463
01:29:53,194 –> 01:29:55,062
”Michael,
it’s starting to click,

1464
01:29:55,196 –> 01:29:58,266
it’s starting to feel like
the way the ‘Grace’ songs felt.”

1465
01:29:58,398 –> 01:30:01,602
♪ Fall in love ♪

1466
01:30:01,736 –> 01:30:03,738
He hadn’t played
anyone any of it.

1467
01:30:04,205 –> 01:30:08,408
His band was joining him
really soon

1468
01:30:08,542 –> 01:30:11,245
to start recording the record.

1469
01:30:11,712 –> 01:30:14,115
Just sometimes a…
a song gets into you and…

1470
01:30:14,248 –> 01:30:15,816
and just gets into you.

1471
01:30:15,950 –> 01:30:17,852
You know, it just happens to you
in a moment.

1472
01:30:20,588 –> 01:30:23,691
Me, Michael, and Mick
each got a four-track tape.

1473
01:30:24,759 –> 01:30:27,929
♪ Twenty-nine pearls
In your kiss ♪

1474
01:30:28,062 –> 01:30:29,997
♪ A singing smile ♪

1475
01:30:30,131 –> 01:30:35,403
♪ Coffee smell and lilac skin
Your flame in me ♪

1476
01:30:35,536 –> 01:30:39,807
I could feel that those songs
had come from a very pure place.

1477
01:30:39,941 –> 01:30:42,376
♪ A little bit young
And hassled ♪

1478
01:30:42,510 –> 01:30:46,080
He was doing it all
on headphones. I said,

1479
01:30:46,213 –> 01:30:48,649
“Jeff, you could get speakers,
and it would fill the room.”

1480
01:30:48,783 –> 01:30:52,485
♪ ♪ Lady, all the troubles
are my fright ♪

1481
01:30:52,620 –> 01:30:55,623
♪ I disgust you ♪

1482
01:30:56,290 –> 01:31:01,162
♪ Feel the power
You cut the truth into you… ♪

1483
01:31:01,295 –> 01:31:03,463
He got
where he needed to go.

1484
01:31:03,597 –> 01:31:05,766
♪ I could kiss you ♪

1485
01:31:05,900 –> 01:31:09,637
♪ With lines of escape
In my mouth ♪

1486
01:31:09,770 –> 01:31:12,472
He’s like,
”I wanna open up
a bank account,

1487
01:31:12,606 –> 01:31:15,443
buy this house,
and I wanna buy a car.”

1488
01:31:16,110 –> 01:31:20,614
He was really happy
and having so…

1489
01:31:22,216 –> 01:31:23,351
much fun.

1490
01:31:25,619 –> 01:31:30,591
♪ They say
Everything can be replaced ♪

1491
01:31:32,960 –> 01:31:38,032
♪ But every distance
Is not near ♪

1492
01:31:38,165 –> 01:31:41,702
Jeff was supposedly on
the way to the rehearsal space.

1493
01:31:42,203 –> 01:31:45,172
He was
with the guitar tech, Foti.

1494
01:31:47,842 –> 01:31:51,045
They ended up going down
to Wolf River.

1495
01:31:52,646 –> 01:31:53,981
It was typical Jeff.

1496
01:31:54,115 –> 01:31:55,516
He thought,
”Oh, it’s so beautiful.”

1497
01:31:55,649 –> 01:31:57,651
”I’m gonna go in fully clothed.”

1498
01:31:58,919 –> 01:32:01,322
No one swims down there.
It was muddy.

1499
01:32:01,455 –> 01:32:03,924
I don’t know about currents.
There were boats.

1500
01:32:04,058 –> 01:32:07,428
♪ From the west
Down to the east ♪

1501
01:32:07,561 –> 01:32:09,397
He was listening
to “Whole Lotta Love”

1502
01:32:09,530 –> 01:32:11,265
by Led Zeppelin.

1503
01:32:11,766 –> 01:32:14,135
♪ Any day now ♪

1504
01:32:14,268 –> 01:32:16,470
Love, anger,
depression, joy…

1505
01:32:16,604 –> 01:32:18,539
♪ Any day now ♪

1506
01:32:18,672 –> 01:32:20,074
…and Zeppelin.

1507
01:32:20,341 –> 01:32:24,011
♪ I shall be released ♪

1508
01:32:26,914 –> 01:32:29,984
♪ Any day now ♪

1509
01:32:30,785 –> 01:32:33,921
♪ Any day now ♪

1510
01:32:34,755 –> 01:32:39,160
♪ I shall be released ♪

1511
01:32:39,293 –> 01:32:42,363
He probably went
in the water

1512
01:32:42,496 –> 01:32:45,032
as soon as we hit the tarmac.

1513
01:32:47,968 –> 01:32:50,838
We got to the house,
and it was kind of in disarray.

1514
01:32:50,971 –> 01:32:53,240
I kept thinking

1515
01:32:53,374 –> 01:32:56,477
I was gonna hear the screen door
squeak open in the back

1516
01:32:56,610 –> 01:32:57,978
and slam, you know,

1517
01:32:58,112 –> 01:33:00,581
and then he’d come
to the kitchen and we’d be like,

1518
01:33:00,714 –> 01:33:03,084
“Yo!” And he’d be like,
“What’s up?”

1519
01:33:05,453 –> 01:33:07,688
Gene picks up the phone and…

1520
01:33:08,956 –> 01:33:10,991
just said, “Let’s go.”

1521
01:33:14,428 –> 01:33:16,831
I thought
he just swam across.

1522
01:33:18,432 –> 01:33:20,935
It was very quiet
and peaceful down there.

1523
01:33:21,702 –> 01:33:25,172
And the sun’s setting.
You know, it’s gonna be dusk.

1524
01:33:28,242 –> 01:33:30,478
Now, there’s,
like, helicopters.

1525
01:33:40,087 –> 01:33:41,622
I picked up the phone
and said “Hello?”

1526
01:33:41,755 –> 01:33:43,057
and someone said,

1527
01:33:43,224 –> 01:33:45,159
”This is Memphis
Police Department.”

1528
01:33:47,995 –> 01:33:49,330
And I said, “I’m coming.”

1529
01:33:55,570 –> 01:33:57,371
The car pulled up in front…

1530
01:33:58,939 –> 01:34:02,076
and it was
Sergeant Mary Grace Johnson

1531
01:34:02,209 –> 01:34:04,278
of the Homicide Department.

1532
01:34:05,146 –> 01:34:09,783
And she said, “You know…
we have to have the sunshine…

1533
01:34:11,152 –> 01:34:13,154
’cause that’ll bring
the body up.

1534
01:34:16,023 –> 01:34:19,727
If we wanna find him,
you have to stop the rain.”

1535
01:34:51,425 –> 01:34:53,928
I was sitting
in his attic two or three days

1536
01:34:54,061 –> 01:34:55,362
after he went into the river.

1537
01:34:55,496 –> 01:34:57,532
And I just remember
breathing in,

1538
01:34:57,666 –> 01:35:02,571
and my breath, like,
just kept going in.

1539
01:35:02,703 –> 01:35:04,004
Like, I just, I had the, like,

1540
01:35:04,138 –> 01:35:06,407
the biggest inhalation
that I’ve ever had.

1541
01:35:06,541 –> 01:35:09,443
And I just felt like
my lungs puffing up

1542
01:35:09,578 –> 01:35:10,711
with air and, like,

1543
01:35:10,844 –> 01:35:13,280
my spine straightening,
you know?

1544
01:35:14,081 –> 01:35:17,985
And, um…
something switched in me,

1545
01:35:18,118 –> 01:35:23,724
and I kind of felt like
he was… gone.

1546
01:35:35,336 –> 01:35:37,171
Singer-songwriter
Jeff Buckley’s body

1547
01:35:37,304 –> 01:35:39,139
finally surfaced
late Wednesday afternoon

1548
01:35:39,273 –> 01:35:42,309
at the foot of Memphis’s famed
musical corridor, Beale Street.

1549
01:35:42,443 –> 01:35:44,278
As a friend watched helplessly
from shore,

1550
01:35:44,411 –> 01:35:47,114
Buckley disappeared under
the wake of a passing boat.

1551
01:35:47,248 –> 01:35:49,250
The irony
wasn’t lost on anyone

1552
01:35:49,383 –> 01:35:51,352
that a man who lived
for his music

1553
01:35:51,485 –> 01:35:53,821
would be found dead
at the foot of Beale Street,

1554
01:35:53,954 –> 01:35:56,056
where he’d performed before.

1555
01:36:00,595 –> 01:36:03,097
I was
in Texas visiting family.

1556
01:36:03,632 –> 01:36:08,235
I was staring at Brays Bayou,
watching the water.

1557
01:36:09,270 –> 01:36:11,539
That was the same time
when Jeff died.

1558
01:36:18,647 –> 01:36:20,347
It was more than I could bear.

1559
01:36:26,688 –> 01:36:30,124
♪ Well, I heard
There was a secret chord ♪

1560
01:36:30,324 –> 01:36:33,494
♪ That David played
And it pleased the Lord… ♪

1561
01:36:33,628 –> 01:36:34,895
It was an undertow.

1562
01:36:35,029 –> 01:36:38,198
The Army Corps of Engineers
had actually

1563
01:36:38,332 –> 01:36:41,502
specifically dug
that viaduct area out

1564
01:36:41,636 –> 01:36:44,405
to keep it clear of debris,
so it dropped off.

1565
01:36:44,539 –> 01:36:48,142
And, obviously, being
fully clothed and weighted

1566
01:36:48,275 –> 01:36:50,077
and out there
for about 20 minutes,

1567
01:36:50,210 –> 01:36:54,114
plus an undertow,
his drowning made sense.

1568
01:36:54,248 –> 01:37:00,921
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪

1569
01:37:01,589 –> 01:37:04,391
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1570
01:37:05,225 –> 01:37:09,897
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1571
01:37:10,030 –> 01:37:12,900
The autopsy report said
he had a beer in his system.

1572
01:37:13,033 –> 01:37:14,068
That’s it.

1573
01:37:14,569 –> 01:37:16,870
I asked Rolling Stone
to please publish

1574
01:37:17,004 –> 01:37:20,307
the report to show that drugs
had nothing to do with it.

1575
01:37:20,441 –> 01:37:22,109
What’s a shame
is that the story

1576
01:37:22,242 –> 01:37:23,578
was very sensationalistic.

1577
01:37:23,712 –> 01:37:25,714
It was very much like,
”Well, we don’t know.”

1578
01:37:25,846 –> 01:37:29,283
And, unfortunately,
I can’t tell you how many people

1579
01:37:29,416 –> 01:37:32,419
I’ve ran into
in the last 20-something years

1580
01:37:32,554 –> 01:37:34,154
who are like,
“Oh, yeah, he died of drugs,”

1581
01:37:34,288 –> 01:37:36,591
or, “Oh, he followed
in his father’s footsteps.”

1582
01:37:37,024 –> 01:37:42,731
♪ And from your lips
She drew the Hallelujah ♪

1583
01:37:43,230 –> 01:37:50,237
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪

1584
01:37:50,971 –> 01:37:54,241
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1585
01:37:54,709 –> 01:38:00,615
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1586
01:38:02,784 –> 01:38:04,753
Jeff was one
of the greatest singers

1587
01:38:04,885 –> 01:38:06,253
of all time.

1588
01:38:06,387 –> 01:38:09,456
♪ Well, baby
I’ve been here before ♪

1589
01:38:09,691 –> 01:38:12,426
♪ I’ve seen this room
And I’ve walked this floor ♪

1590
01:38:12,560 –> 01:38:14,461
I didn’t
fully comprehend

1591
01:38:14,596 –> 01:38:17,431
how dope he was
when he was alive.

1592
01:38:18,499 –> 01:38:22,403
It was my first band,
and he was my boy,

1593
01:38:22,537 –> 01:38:24,539
and everything
just felt natural.

1594
01:38:25,272 –> 01:38:29,677
It was… a perfect example of,
you know,

1595
01:38:29,811 –> 01:38:32,112
youth is wasted on the young.

1596
01:38:33,715 –> 01:38:36,751
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1597
01:38:37,217 –> 01:38:40,320
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1598
01:38:40,988 –> 01:38:46,628
♪ Hallelujah, Hallelu… ♪

1599
01:38:46,761 –> 01:38:49,898
He had said,
“You should come out
to Memphis.”

1600
01:38:50,030 –> 01:38:51,165
“It’s beautiful here.”

1601
01:38:51,633 –> 01:38:53,735
And I said,
”When your record’s done,

1602
01:38:53,868 –> 01:38:55,670
I’d really love that.”

1603
01:38:55,804 –> 01:38:59,139
♪ Well there was a time
When you let me know ♪

1604
01:38:59,273 –> 01:39:02,544
♪ What’s really going on below ♪

1605
01:39:02,677 –> 01:39:08,315
♪ But now you never show that
To me, do ya? ♪

1606
01:39:08,817 –> 01:39:10,217
We were so young.

1607
01:39:11,151 –> 01:39:13,020
Like…

1608
01:39:14,054 –> 01:39:15,723
we’d… you know,
all of those things

1609
01:39:15,857 –> 01:39:20,327
that felt so urgent and scary,
those fall away.

1610
01:39:22,664 –> 01:39:24,465
And…

1611
01:39:25,499 –> 01:39:29,069
you know, I would have loved
to see him…

1612
01:39:29,804 –> 01:39:31,606
have those things fall away.

1613
01:39:31,739 –> 01:39:33,440
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1614
01:39:34,107 –> 01:39:39,379
♪ Hallelujah ♪

1615
01:39:50,892 –> 01:39:54,929
Hey, Maruka. Hey, mama.

1616
01:39:55,329 –> 01:39:56,598
This is your son.

1617
01:39:57,297 –> 01:39:59,601
There are somethings
I have to tell you.

1618
01:40:01,936 –> 01:40:03,437
It’s very special to me…

1619
01:40:04,304 –> 01:40:07,742
that you are a person
that a child came from.

1620
01:40:09,777 –> 01:40:13,748
And you are a person
that fought for their child.

1621
01:40:14,214 –> 01:40:16,518
You know,
you fought for the child.

1622
01:40:18,151 –> 01:40:20,020
You got some fuckin’ cojones…

1623
01:40:20,153 –> 01:40:22,624
…baby.

1624
01:40:23,390 –> 01:40:25,660
Ma… you know…

1625
01:40:26,661 –> 01:40:29,229
anybody can be famous, Mary.

1626
01:40:29,664 –> 01:40:31,666
Anybody can be
fucking famous, baby.

1627
01:40:31,799 –> 01:40:36,004
But it takes a real spirit,
you hear me?

1628
01:40:36,403 –> 01:40:40,608
It takes a real spirit…
to raise a kid.

1629
01:40:42,442 –> 01:40:44,378
You know, you brought me
into the world.

1630
01:40:45,914 –> 01:40:48,415
A lot of my phrasing
is from you, you know?

1631
01:40:48,550 –> 01:40:51,619
A lot of my phrasing
when I sing is from you.

1632
01:40:53,453 –> 01:40:55,557
I’m glad you’re my mother.

1633
01:40:56,323 –> 01:40:58,425
I’m glad you gave me the things
you gave me.

1634
01:41:01,395 –> 01:41:02,730
- Yeah.
- Yeah!

1635
01:41:02,864 –> 01:41:04,464
You know how much
I love you, ma.

1636
01:41:04,599 –> 01:41:05,767
I love you too.

1637
01:41:05,900 –> 01:41:08,636
I love you.
I love you so much.

1638
01:41:09,503 –> 01:41:11,238
I love you.

1639
01:41:15,108 –> 01:41:16,243
Thank you.

1640
01:41:18,646 –> 01:41:23,518
♪ Well, maybe
I’m just too young, oh ♪

1641
01:41:23,718 –> 01:41:30,692
♪ To keep good love
From going wrong ♪

1642
01:41:35,162 –> 01:41:37,164
♪ Oh ♪

1643
01:41:38,032 –> 01:41:44,204
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

1644
01:41:44,338 –> 01:41:50,044
♪ Yeah, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

1645
01:41:50,177 –> 01:41:56,116
♪ Oh, lover
You should’ve come over ♪

1646
01:41:59,053 –> 01:42:04,358
♪ Well, I feel too young
To hold on ♪

1647
01:42:05,492 –> 01:42:09,664
♪ And I’m much too old
To break free and run ♪

1648
01:42:10,397 –> 01:42:16,037
♪ Too deaf, dumb, and blind
To see the damage I’ve done ♪

1649
01:42:16,436 –> 01:42:22,543
♪ Sweet lover
You, you should’ve come over ♪

1650
01:42:23,778 –> 01:42:26,981
♪ How long
Will I wait for you ♪

1651
01:42:27,214 –> 01:42:30,685
♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪

1652
01:42:30,818 –> 01:42:34,055
♪ Lover, love, love, love ♪

1653
01:42:34,187 –> 01:42:37,692
♪ Lover, lover ♪

1654
01:42:37,825 –> 01:42:44,431
♪ Lover ♪

1655
01:42:45,499 –> 01:42:50,404
♪ You should’ve come over ♪

1656
01:42:51,606 –> 01:42:58,746
♪ ‘Cause it’s not too late ♪

1657
01:43:09,090 –> 01:43:12,292
Thanks a lot, everybody.
Goodnight.

1658
01:43:18,498 –> 01:43:19,867
You were beautiful.

1659
01:43:20,635 –> 01:43:22,170
Thanks a lot. And I love you.

1660
01:43:30,645 –> 01:43:33,246
♪ Lady, all the troubles ♪

1661
01:43:33,380 –> 01:43:37,317
♪ Are my fright, I disgust you ♪

1662
01:43:38,119 –> 01:43:45,159
♪ Feel the power
You cut the truth into you ♪

1663
01:43:45,960 –> 01:43:52,934
♪ Why do you think I did not
On this rely ♪

1664
01:43:53,067 –> 01:43:55,036
♪ I could kiss you ♪

1665
01:43:55,169 –> 01:43:59,107
♪ With lines of escape
In my mouth ♪

1666
01:43:59,239 –> 01:44:03,310
♪ Ah-ha-ha ♪

1667
01:44:10,585 –> 01:44:12,787
♪ Please, let me bring back ♪

1668
01:44:12,920 –> 01:44:17,125
♪ These gifts of mine
To the woman ♪

1669
01:44:17,825 –> 01:44:20,228
♪ Stars shined on my back ♪

1670
01:44:20,360 –> 01:44:25,265
♪ As I slept and knew you ♪

1671
01:44:25,398 –> 01:44:28,936
♪ You didn’t leave it all ♪

1672
01:44:29,302 –> 01:44:32,507
♪ You made an even call ♪

1673
01:44:32,840 –> 01:44:36,409
♪ My belly released the stars ♪

1674
01:44:36,544 –> 01:44:43,017
♪ And tears between the scars ♪

1675
01:44:47,454 –> 01:44:48,723
♪ Ooh ♪

1676
01:45:02,270 –> 01:45:06,541
♪ Below this we’ll end here
Until the end of time ♪

1677
01:45:06,674 –> 01:45:10,678
♪ Beyond the moment
That ends our bondage ♪

1678
01:45:10,878 –> 01:45:13,881
♪ I am your failed
Husband contender ♪

1679
01:45:14,015 –> 01:45:17,384
♪ I’m your loan shark of bliss ♪

1680
01:45:17,518 –> 01:45:20,855
♪ This dream you’ve ridden on ♪

1681
01:45:20,988 –> 01:45:25,159
♪ Turns your world
To explosions ♪

1682
01:45:25,492 –> 01:45:28,863
♪ I need to be alone ♪

1683
01:45:28,996 –> 01:45:34,635
♪ To heal this bleeding stone ♪

1684
01:45:34,836 –> 01:45:40,041
♪ Now, smell
The rain of London ♪

1685
01:45:40,174 –> 01:45:43,611
♪ It still insists ♪

1686
01:45:43,945 –> 01:45:48,950
♪ That we beg for our ♪

1687
01:45:49,349 –> 01:45:53,054
♪ Purity ♪

1688
01:45:53,588 –> 01:46:00,027
♪ As if we are pure ♪

1689
01:46:00,161 –> 01:46:05,666
♪ In the reign
Of our contentment ♪

1690
01:46:05,867 –> 01:46:12,073
♪ As if I can think of ♪

1691
01:46:12,206 –> 01:46:15,343
♪ This ♪

1692
01:46:15,643 –> 01:46:20,281
♪ No more ♪

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